Thoughts and Feelings

Posted by Fe Bongolan


Stepping off her soapbox and back into her armchair, Fe Bongolan writes on the exhilaration and pain of watching the world turn this month — from Orlando to Occupy Congress, and Brexit — and asks how much more can we evolve from the challenge of today’s turmoil. How else can we try?

“What is needed now, more than ever, is leadership that steers us away from fear and fosters greater confidence in the inherent goodness and ingenuity of humanity,”  — former US President Jimmy Carter

All last week, I looked intently at local, national and specific international events. It’s been both exhilarating and painful to watch the world turn this month. Orlando. Occupy Congress. Brexit. The Supreme Court. But today, I want to share something that’s more from my armchair than from my soapbox. A broader picture.


Even while American women celebrate the Supreme Court overturning a Texas law that severely limited access to abortion, our fellow sisters — new immigrants and their daughters, who lost access to health services because of the Texas ruling — now face larger issues: their very existence in this country. The stalemate in a Scalia-less Supreme Court sent the Obama Administration’s immigrant amnesty program packing back to the lower court; that lower court ruled it unconstitutional, basically nullifying it.

The rise of demagoguery in our politics generates so much id-based reaction against the Other that we’re not quite sure if we’re in the present looking forward to the future, or looking to the past: the anti-immigrant sentiment that fueled the UK’s Brexit vote and Donald Trump’s particular brand of anti-immigrant idiocy makes us squirm in embarrassment for both our countries.

People are angry, scared and trying to re-empower themselves. That goes for the white male demographic who feel the fade of their power and influence in every sector of society: witness their need for weapons to ensure we haven’t forgotten they’re still in the same room with us, armed and ready. It also goes for the female demographic rising up towards gender equity in pay, and fighting to preserve our reproductive freedom. It goes for every man, woman and child living in this country “illegally” until leadership figures out how to “manage” the browning of the country in this new century, as well as accommodate the gender fluidity of its citizens.

Feelings are things that cannot be managed, yet they are easily manipulated. Feelings are an ultimate indicator; they are what we use to make decisions affecting our everyday lives on a profound level. Like voting for president or for a referendum on your country’s economic independence.

Here, the problem is that as a Cancer Sun nation we are a feeling entity, and we tend to lose sight of thought. The economic state of the world and our immediate, virtual access to every moment of its existence make us want to distrust and question anything that does not accord with the beliefs we already hold. The information we do get is often not complete, or even true. How can we trust the information we receive?

Furthermore, many pollsters ask how you FEEL about one political situation or the next. Your emotions then inform the potential electorate which way the wind blows, regardless of facts. With the methodology of modern-day campaigning and use of the internet to explore ideas and exploit reactions, the calm coolness of thought usually does not make us rise up and move towards the voting booth. But passion does. Then our reactions become the facts.

The Twitter feeds that help organize massive rallies to Feel the Bern also fuel Mr. Trump’s supporters to throw invective at us “libtards,” and organize American neo-Nazis to rally. Supporters of both sides lurking out there feel the same way: sanctioned because they have allies, and fear-based “fact” behind them.

Yet it’s that same internet that brought us John Lewis and the 24-hour occupation of Congress by Congressional Democrats. It showed us — in the way the Arab Spring uprising did in Egypt’s Tahrir Square — that we, too, can prove “the whole world is watching,” and can make what was once an intractable Congress shift. Even if but a little.

Our country’s Aquarian Moon has great potential for revolutionary ideas and crystallizing them into being. But some of these great ideas have careened past their original intent. We see the results of that. We’re all struggling with the changing of our place in the globalized high-tech world, which has sped up the planet.

Our actions have also accelerated the karmic wheel. Immigrants fleeing the Gulf Wars and climate change are coming to the US; immigrants from economically depressed areas of Europe are seeking economic opportunity in the UK as a result of EU austerity. The result is the same: palpable tension.

Yes I know, it’s all big-picture stuff. But maybe the bigger picture is what we need at the moment. I want my country to trust our thinking Moon to inform our feeling Sun. I want us to be warm hearted and open minded, as we have always idealized ourselves to be. I want us to flush all thought of a small-fingered narcissist in the White House down the toilet where he belongs.

I want us to respond to the world, not react. A good response requires truth, and thought about that truth, with ideas that are clear, well-informed and broad-minded, coming from informed hearts that are compassionate, open and visionary. How much more can we evolve from the challenge of today’s turmoil? How else can we try?

Our thoughts and feelings are ours to own. But the lens through which we view the world, which informs thought and emotion, must be able to encompass the wideness and depth of the world — as well as focus like a laser on its most poignant, individual moments and their meaning. We have the capability to do it. We have to look to make sure we model the best of our thoughts and feelings for others to follow, like John Lewis did. Now more than ever by our hearts and minds we are connected — all of us — to each other.

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Planet Waves writer Fe Bongolan lives in Oakland, California. Her column, "Fe-911," has been featured on Planet Waves since 2008. As an actor and dramaturge, Fe is a core member of Cultural Odyssey's "The Medea Project -- Theater for Incarcerated Women," producing work that empowers the voices of all women in trouble, from ex-offenders, women with HIV-AIDS, to young girls and women at risk. A Planet Waves fan from almost the beginning of Eric's astrology career, Fe is a public sector employee who describes herself as a "mystical public servant." When it comes to art, culture and politics, she loves reading between the lines.

6 thoughts on “Thoughts and Feelings

  1. Barbara Koehler

    Hey Fe, how’s that armchair feeling? To me it feels (just kidding) it appears to be Neptune screwing around with our country’s 3rd house communication. Why’s that I wonder, and then I remember, oh yeah, the Universe wants us to practice using those feelings. Too long we have utilized our thinking apparatus only, those minds of ours all by themselves, without acknowledging the input from our feelings, our intuition and other survival skills we’ve left by the wayside.

    In this country transiting Neptune entered the U.S. Sibly chart’s 3rd house a bit before it conjoined the U.S. Moon in Aquarius. Ever since then, gradually at first while still in Aquarius, the U.S.A. has been incorporating the fog machine into its communications. Doubts, rumors, misinformation, double meanings and flat out lies from all sources have helped to confuse and mislead us.

    It wasn’t until 2012 when Neptune moved into Pisces for good that we got the feeling for just how prevalent this fog was. In 2013 Edward Snowden blew away much of the smoke, fog and mirror distortion and ever since then we’ve questioned almost all information, coming in and going out. At least most of us have. Maybe that’s the purpose then, to question the source of what we once believed was rational thought.

    Wisdom is accrued over time and through experience, and certainly not just through our mental acuity. It is a balancing act, one we have, over many, many centuries, turned away from. We are now in the process of exercising those forgotten, rejected, God-given tools like feeling. We are going to need them; sometimes just one will be all we will need to avoid danger, but more often in concert will our multitude of senses and both sides of our brains inform us, as individuals and as a whole.

    I say trust that U.S Cancer Sun, ruled by that Aquarian Moon, ruled by Saturn and Uranus, to get our feelings up to par again. We must learn to not depend totally on logic and technology and gradually the fog will thin out. Much of the fear will dissipate, trust will grow and we will become whole. Practice, practice, practice.

    1. Fe BongolanFe Bongolan Post author

      How true, B. Our judgements have been clouded by Neptune — the fog-bringer, with fog-burning sunlight moments in between-times. Feels a lot like a hangover: politically, socially and culturally.

      How to make the two work? Heart and head? Head and heart? I think both when clear. But informing our hearts with truth — sunlight is what we need to strive for. That is not easily accessible, or in some cases, even allowed.

      But I trust us to get out of this valley, and it seems like a long road. But maybe taking no short cuts is the best way to create good, long lasting change.

      Always a pleasure to have your insights on board!

    1. Fe BongolanFe Bongolan Post author


      After three columns last week with the deluge of BIG news we had, I thought a little introspection was right. We get spent by too much reaction, and need time to process.

      Great to have you here in my little neck of the woods!

    1. Fe BongolanFe Bongolan Post author


      Thanks so much for your comment. I think we’re all in need of a little breather. Feels like the world comes at us so quickly, that its good to watch it spin without us for a metaphorical minute or two!!

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