You’re under a lot of psychological pressure at the moment, and you may feel like you need to back away from the world. It may seem like you need a year living in a cave that hides you from the past; but a real weekend with no responsibilities, including commitments to family and friends, would do you a world of good right now.
Celibacy is an interesting way to see the world. It’s like encountering sex from the outside looking in, and experiencing the sexuality of others as a dimension apart, something out of reach. The kind of celibacy I see in your chart involves you experiencing yourself as a fully self-contained entity.
You’re starting to admit how absurd all the rituals and expectations are — but this is doing nothing to dampen your spirits. Dive into life with not only the trust of a child, but with the curiosity and sense of adventure. The past has no hold on you, and neither do the people who cling to it desperately.