It may happen that your most passionately held beliefs come under question, or that you encounter people with whom you clash. I’m not suggesting that you stuff your feelings or not be clear about what you stand for, but it’s essential to your happiness and wellbeing that you observe yourself continuously while doing so.
Events of the past few days seem to have left you off of centre stage, and it may be quite difficult for you to see the vital role you play. This is particularly true in a work-related situation where ideas count for everything. What you most likely cannot see is the extraordinary influence you’re bringing to bear on the situation.
Your current zeal for honesty has a potentially violent quality. If you can, reverse your course because if you don’t, what you learn may repel your awareness rather than turn it on. And you need all the awareness you can get right now. Or to put it more effectively, you need to remove anything you discover that’s a block to your awareness.
There are certain things you don’t know at this point which you feel by all rights you should know. Yet you probably know them already and are just in one of those phases where you feel you’re not ready. That’s not a big deal because you’ll be ready in a few days by which time you’ll understand that there really is no huge decision you have to make.
So much less is tangible now. Just when you got accustomed to the rather astonishing challenge to your identity that’s dominated the past 18 months, your entire orientation changed from one that was fundamentally mental to one that is at its essence emotional. So little seems certain in the emotional realm; it’s a different element, where small movements carry with much greater momentum.
These past few months may have resonated with more potential than success; with more crisis than creative opportunity. But think of all that as preparation; consider how much more aware you are now than you were just a few months ago. Now comes the moment of truth: focusing your priorities and making sure that you put your potential to the best possible use.
Get your parents and related individuals out of the picture, symbolically or in reality. That is, remember you’re an adult and they have no power over you. The one thing you don’t want to mess with this month are ‘authority issues’, which is precisely because you have way too much taking authority to do.
Reality is like soft clay in your hands right now. So now is the time to sculpt your life in the way that you want. You will continue to have opportunities to do so, but this is the true formative moment. Therefore, take your time and redesign your life the way you want it. This will invariably involve how you use space, how you project yourself into the world.
Though you have not necessarily felt emotionally stable the past few weeks, events are conspiring to strengthen your foundations and give you something solid to build on. Take every chance to work on that bottom layer, that of your emotional security. Ask the questions of your life in more complex ways and don’t be satisfied with cut-and-dried explanations of how you feel.