You may not know how you’re going to navigate or even find the turning point you feel approaching, but I suggest you go entirely on intuition. From where you are now, you cannot get to the wrong place. Though there is an element of chance involved, that’s the opening through which a rare kind of awareness will enter the equation of your life.
It would appear that you’re working to break through to the next level of maturity. You still have some time, but events of the current week are likely to provide you a glimpse through to the other side, or more accurately, an actual breakthrough in thought that allows you to plot your vision of your future self.
Nobody is expecting you to be yourself right now, especially if “yourself” is the person who could never get anything truly important (or rather, important to you) done, or who lived surrounded by lists of un-reached-for aspirations, or if you were previously someone whose happiness was underscored by some version of doubt in yourself.