Nearly all the energy coming at you involves sex in some form or another. That might include desire, love, lust, attachment or attraction. And, because many people have some issues around sex, a diversity of shadow emotions are possible — meaning the things that are difficult to acknowledge or understand, such as shame, guilt and repulsion.
There’s only so far you can drag yourself backwards before you decide it’s time to proceed in the direction you want. You’ve struggled with a tendency to attempt serving two masters: one being yourself, and the other being some past influence that is allegedly dictating who you should be and why you should be that way.
You may think you use up all your good luck staying out of serious trouble. It’s true, you allocate some of it to that worthy purpose; the world is full of little and large traps that eat time, money and gumption. At the moment, you’re in a rather special bubble of time wherein you make all your own luck.