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Photo by Amanda Painter; Orkney, Scotland, 2018.

Breath and Butterflies, Blue and Beltane

By Amanda Painter

On Saturday, we have a New Moon right at the midpoint of Taurus — the Beltane zone, when the ancient Pagans celebrated the fertility of the Earth by having sex out in the fields. I’m supposed to tell you all about this interesting chart, and I will; but to be honest, I’m still ruminating on some of the events and recurring themes I encountered last week while I was away, during the Sun’s first conjunction to Uranus in Taurus.

Photo by Amanda Painter; Orkney, Scotland, 2018.

Photo by Amanda Painter; Orkney, Scotland, 2018.

So if you’ll pardon the indulgence, I’m going to start there and will make my leisurely way to the astrology. You know how a Taurus hates to be rushed.

With the gracious support of my Planet Waves colleagues, I was just immersed in a weeklong intensive class in Orkney, Scotland — a particular method for freeing the breath and voice for theater — taught by its 83-year-old originator (and fellow Taurean) Kristin Linklater. It was a rather spontaneous opportunity, though it built upon my 2018 trip there for the same purpose.

During last year’s class, Uranus — “The Awakener,” the cosmic sparkplug — made its preliminary ingress into Taurus. During my trip this year, the Sun made its first of its annual conjunctions to Uranus in Taurus between now and 2025. I already knew before I got the email for the class (three weeks before it started) that it was exactly the way I wanted to return to the sense of ‘being in process’ that had marked last spring; the moment I noticed the Sun-Uranus conjunction would be occurring, it was like a bell rang.

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Shadow Meeting; photo by Amanda Painter.

Dancing on (or with) the Edge: the Libra Full Moon

By Amanda Painter

Tomorrow morning, at 7:12 am EDT / 11:12:03 UTC, the Libra Moon opposes the Aries Sun for the Libra Full Moon. While a Libra Moon tends to be a ‘people-pleasing’ placement — an intellectual and artistic Moon that seeks harmony — the chart for this event describes an emotional current that’s under pressure, and which therefore could tip either way: toward creativity or toward disruption.

Shadow Meeting; photo by Amanda Painter.

Shadow Meeting; photo by Amanda Painter.

In fact, you may already be experiencing provocative encounters with certain people in your life; possibly someone is being reactive. Or could it be that you’re the reactive one?

Remember that one inherent property of a Full Moon is that the Moon is reflecting the Sun’s light. It’s a great metaphor for the type of emotional projection that can happen between people, especially if a situation carries unacknowledged baggage from the past, or if a current-moment factor is being left unsaid.

We human beings can have a hard time being introspective when something is thrust in our face; or when too much is demanding our attention around us. Yet one thing this Full Moon appears to be asking for is a high degree of self-awareness — in particular, some self-monitoring of our less-controlled urges.

For one thing, the Sun and Moon are facing off from the very last degree of their respective signs. This may translate to an added edginess — especially since the Sun and Moon are also both in close contact with Uranus in Taurus. The Moon will oppose ‘the cosmic sparkplug’ later on Friday; the Sun will conjoin Uranus on Monday.

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“Mystic Mountain,” a detail from the much more extensive Carina Nebula, which astronomers are studying the complicated physical processes that form new stars. Photo by NASA, ESA, and M. Livio and the Hubble 20th Anniversary Team (STScI)

What We Birth Amidst the Chaos

By Amanda Painter

On Saturday, the Aries Sun slides right into the square between Pluto in Capricorn and Eris in Aries. As was written about at the beginning of the week, this is part of a long series of era-changing and defining aspects covering the last ten-plus years. Chances are you can see a substantial amount of the change, stress, growth and discovery in your own life in that span of time as a reflection of this astrology; this week’s rumblings may be stirring up some uncertainty and tension — possibly with deep roots, along with great creative potential.

“Mystic Mountain,” a detail from the much more extensive Carina Nebula, which astronomers are studying the complicated physical processes that form new stars. Photo by  NASA, ESA, and M. Livio and the Hubble 20th Anniversary Team (STScI)

“Mystic Mountain,” a detail from the much more extensive Carina Nebula, via which astronomers are studying the complicated physical processes that form new stars. Photo by NASA, ESA, and M. Livio and the Hubble 20th Anniversary Team (STScI)

One thing that could feel tricky about it, though, is getting a handle on how this energy is coming through for you personally.

Eris and Pluto move slowly; they tend to describe generational (or longer) processes.

Pluto, in particular, drives social (and, in Capricorn, institutional) evolution by breaking down what’s no longer functioning constructively. Eris adds a destabilizing factor: an element of chaos, subversion and (in its recent association with Uranus) provocation via the ways we define identity itself.

Another thing that might be challenging right now — yet easier to grasp — is the lingering effects of Mercury, and now Venus, moving through the focus-dissolving, imagination-distracting, and enticingly escapist field of Neptune in Pisces. Mercury is also still working through its post-retrograde shadow phase (it exits for new astrological turf on April 16). I’m hearing from a number of people comments about how this is still feeling a bit hiccup-y. It’s okay to continue taking things as slowly and deliberately as you need to.

Looking at Saturday’s chart, I noticed an interesting complement of minor objects in close contact with the Sun-Pluto-Eris aspect. I think they paint a fairly clear thematic picture, whether applied personally as you see fit, or culturally. I’m going to list them briefly.

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Pairing Up with the Aries New Moon

By Amanda Painter

Early on Friday the Sun and Moon conjoin in Aries for the Aries New Moon. This is occurring right at the midpoint of the sign, in a rather interesting chart. The sky right now features a strong mix of Aries and Pisces; and while that often occurs at the very beginning of this season, the mix is feeling especially striking to me this year.

Simplified chart section for Friday's Aries New Moon, showing the four pairs of conjunctions. From top: Nessus & Venus, Neptune & Mercury, Vesta & Chiron, Sun & Moon.

Simplified chart section for the Aries New Moon, showing four conjunctions in Pisces and Aries. From top: Nessus, Venus, Neptune, Mercury, Vesta, Chiron, Sun, Moon.

I chalk that up partly to the fact that the Mercury-Neptune conjunction is still going strong, its influence seemingly all the more potent due to its level of exactness when Mercury stationed direct a week ago.

Related to that, for the last week I’ve been repeatedly confronted by a mix of my intuition being right on some things, and other thoughts and feelings — sometimes related to the same topic — being completely wrong. Heightened awareness of energetic, emotional or spiritual boundaries, particularly when I’m starting to overstep them, has been another prominent theme for me.

What has your week been like? Your personal experience of the energy may vary considerably, yet Mercury-Neptune is the background against which tomorrow’s New Moon occurs, so it’s worth considering. I sometimes think of the Aries New Moon as kind of the ‘other shoe’ to the equinox. It’s a ‘restart button’ for a shorter-term cycle (lunar rather than seasonal) that invokes, concentrates and then releases into the same energy of newness, growth and initiative.

Yet what caught my eye about this New Moon chart is that the Sun-Moon and Mercury-Neptune conjunctions are only two of four conjunctions in effect right now across Pisces and Aries. There’s also Venus conjunct the centaur planet Nessus in Pisces, and Vesta conjunct the centaur Chiron in Aries.

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A giant Pinocchio balloon above the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade in Manhattan, probably during the 1930s. Photo by Walter Kelleher / NY Daily News Archive.

You’re Not Actually About to Float Away

By Amanda Painter

Are you feeling like a total space cadet this week? Or maybe like you’re beaming in somebody else’s daydreams? How many times have you absentmindedly suffered a minor injury / locked yourself out / thought it was a different day? Are your efforts at sensitive, empathetic communication just not landing anywhere near your intended target (especially online conversations)?

A giant Pinocchio balloon above the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade in Manhattan, probably during the 1930s. Photo by Walter Kelleher / NY Daily News Archive.

A giant Pinocchio balloon floats above the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade and its many handlers in Manhattan, probably during the 1930s. Photo by Walter Kelleher / New York Daily News Archive.

Is the world an ever-morphing mix of crazy-beautiful and scary-surreal?

Okay, I’ll grant you, that last sentence has been applicable for a good three years now — or perhaps for all time. But from my perspective, all those other questions appear to have been peaking in this last week — described by Mercury traveling in apparent retrograde motion in a tight conjunction to Neptune in Pisces.

Mercury makes its direct station today at 9:59 am EDT (13:58:41 UTC). It does so (cozied up to Neptune) while making a T-square to the asteroid Juno in Gemini and Ceres in Sagittarius.

This image just came to me as I was writing that sentence: that Juno and Ceres are kind of like a couple of handlers from the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade, each holding a line to one of those giant cartoon-character balloons high in the air. (I know, I know: wrong season. Just bear with me.)

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MYSTERY PLAY: The Evolutionary Potential of this Mercury Cycle

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Image by Lanvi Nguyen.

Once upon a time, many years ago, an old, wise, white-haired master of whom I was very fond taught me something. A simple trance technique, used to contact guides and receive information from the higher planes. He called it The Absolution Pool.

He told me to create a temple, create it in the imaginal realm, to invest great care in its construction; visualizing how the light played upon detail, how it felt, how it looked and smelled and sounded. The one essential element was some piece of comfortable furnishing upon which to lie down.

I was to practice lying down within my private temple, and draw energy up from the soles of my feet through the crown of my head, and in so doing to release all worries, fears, and worldly concerns. With each pass upwards through my body he told me to let some of the energy gather within the eye that looks out from the center of my forehead.

He tapped the spot, “Now see before you the sacred pool, and enter the waters from here. The water is pure love… Do you feel it, child? Bathe there; bathe in the waters of purest love and when you are ready, dive down… Down, down. Swim down and down until you see the lights, the lights along the sides of the tunnel. Find the one that calls you, sister, and enter.”

After receiving whatever information or communion sought, I was to remember always to exit from my host’s audience by walking backwards, with respect.

In my temple there is a flame; a perpetual flame in a sacred hearth.

Mystery Play

When I realized Mercury’s retrograde concluded with ten days of conjunction to Neptune, my inner detective snapped to attention. The shadow began on my solar return, Mercury stationed retrograde opposite my ascendant, headed for a deep dive into Neptune, which has been conjunct my Moon for the better part of a year. It felt personal. The recent Pisces cycle had some dramatic astrology; ten days in the belly of the whale, that conjunction with Neptune, makes it extraordinary. Mercury is the bringer of omens: is there a message to be gleaned?

The Players

Looking at the conjunction, symbolism resonant of a kind of soul retrieval leaps out, with Mercury in his role as psychopomp: literally “guide of souls.” Mercury alone among the gods had the ability to traverse all realms: the Olympian upper realm of gods, our human sphere, and Pluto’s underworld. As a guide of souls, Mercury escorted the newly departed across the barrier between realms. He is the god of border crossings. Carl Jung framed the psychopomp archetype as a mediator between the conscious and unconscious, symbolically appearing in dreams as a wise teacher, or helpful animal.

Dreams are Neptune’s purview, all right. Western culture generally values dreaming consciousness in terms of personal psychology, and Neptune’s orbital harmony with Pluto underscores the cosmic truth in this relationship. But that’s pretty much the extent to which our worldview embraces the power of dreams.

Eric referenced the Tibetan Buddhist approach to dreams, known as dream yoga, in the context of this Mercury-Neptune conjunction. Mercury’s relationship with conscious thought, and Neptune’s relationship with the dream world, couldn’t make this more apt. Tibetan adepts train themselves to bring conscious awareness into the dream state, what we call “lucid dreaming.” The skill is thought to be invaluable practice for traversing the Bardo, the state in between incarnations (as Tibetan Buddhism frames reincarnation).

Mesoamerican esoteric tradition preserves similar teachings; for the purpose of transcending karmic patterns, like the Tibetans, as well as for transforming waking experience. When asleep and dreaming, we’re usually aware of no other reality. Likewise, while awake, concerns of the everyday world and personality are ‘reality’.

Within the Toltec worldview, first brought to the mainstream through the work of Carlos Castaneda, the reality glimpsed in dreams is causal: waking reality is created from within that vast domain. The relationship between our two, usually entirely divorced, psychic components — dreaming and waking awareness — plays into the epochal shift identified millennia ago by Mesoamerican astronomer-seers. Their legacy is most familiar in the form of the Mayan calendar, though also preserved in arguably more intact transmissions. That’s too long a story for now, but relevant to what I’ve perceived of the message and potential in this unusual Mercury-Neptune conjunction.

The transcendent, creative inspiration we see in Neptune types like Einstein and Michelangelo may astound us, but poses no threat. We readily cut certain kinds of genius some slack; it’s ok for them to be weird. However, discernment between different otherworldly Neptune functions — psychism, ecstasy, spiritual communion — and psychopathology of whatever sort, is not especially supported by our cultural perspective. Such experiences have never won friends within established orders.

Theresa of Avila, for example, whose ecstatic trances were said to result in inconvenient levitations, came perilously close to the fiery fate of Joan of Arc. Reputable scientists whose research focuses on psychic phenomena, or other Neptune subjects like reincarnation, are rarely embraced by the scientific community, regardless of the impeccability of their methods or quality of their data. Venturing beyond accepted realities, whether religious or scientific, can be a dangerous border crossing.

As a culture, we’ve been stuck in the awkward stage between the doctrinal rigidity of institutionalized religion, and the unacknowledged, yet dominant, religion of ‘scientific’ materialism. Quantum physics may prove the fundamental illusion of linear time and materiality, yet access to the consciousness compatible with that reality remains distant and elusive. Kind of like Neptune.

Contemporary biographies of outstanding mystic saints, like Theresa, often include a psychological diagnosis to explain their symptoms. This is understandable, to a point; for in true Neptunian fashion, the distinction between spiritual or psychic genius and delusional psychotic is sometimes unclear. Charlatans, from time immemorial, have exploited the profound human need for contact with what lies ‘beyond the veil’, and discernment between authentic phenomena and fraudulent illusion can likewise be tricky. Neptune’s jurisdiction is not of this world. The negative potential inherent in Mercury’s conjunction, especially when retrograde (poor judgment, clouded thinking, etc.) has been laid out in these pages for a few weeks.

But what’s the positive potential? Are we presented with an opportunity to grow in any way?

This mystery play features a third player, Vesta, goddess of the Eternal Flame. Vesta’s signature includes the capacity to hold space: sanctuary for private focus and devotion to ideals. Like Mercury’s dominion over border crossings, Vesta guards the threshold.

Vesta is the sacred fire that burns within the Earth, the fertilizing, vital spark of life. Her priestesses were virgin, in the sense of whole-unto-themselves. They prepared official sacrificial offerings, and, consistent with offerings to deities throughout antiquity, represented the ‘finest of the flock’: beautiful maiden daughters of the ruling class. This fiery asteroid (Vesta’s luminous surface composition makes it the only one visible to the naked eye) is associated with both Virgo and Scorpio, symbolic of service, dedication, wholeness and the mystery of generation.

The Astrology

Mercury’s retrograde shadow and first conjunction with Neptune (where it will end up after its backward journey) began on Feb. 19, just after the Sun entered Pisces, on the day of the Virgo Full Moon. The Sun was in the first degree of Pisces, Moon in the first degree of Virgo, with Mercury at 17 degrees Pisces and Neptune at 16 degrees Pisces, just about the middle of the sign.

The retrograde began on March 5, hours before the Pisces New Moon, with Sun, Moon, Neptune and Vesta conjunct at 16-17 degrees Pisces. Mercury stationed retrograde at 30 degrees of Pisces (also written as 29+ Pisces) the last degree of the zodiac; the ‘degree of expiation’.

The exact retrograde conjunction with Neptune on March 24 recurred at 17 degrees Pisces. Venus entered Pisces, the sign of its exaltation, on March 26.

Mercury stations direct on March 28, still conjunct Neptune. That ongoing conjunction to Neptune will be precisely exact again on April 2, at 18 degrees Pisces.

That April 2 exact conjunction between Mercury and Neptune occurs shortly after the Moon conjoins Venus in Pisces, with Vesta now at 30 degrees Pisces (on a chart this appears as 29 Pisces, and can be written as 29+ Pisces). This is exactly where Mercury was when the retrograde began, and opposite Vesta’s discovery degree, 30 degrees Virgo (also written as 29+ Virgo).

The arc highlights the entirety of the Virgo-Pisces axis, with both first and last degrees of those signs activated. The fusion of their planetary rulers, Mercury and Neptune, underscores the significance.

Higher aspirations shared by Virgo and Pisces include service and transcendence of ego identification. The astrological ‘Piscean Age’ has been associated with the rise of Christianity (however quickly and dramatically Rome’s usurpation may have altered the spirit of that movement). Piscean symbolism recurs in New Testament narratives; in the Middle Ages Virgo became associated with Mary, the virgin mother. Neptune is ‘the higher octave’ of Venus. Personal love becomes divine compassion.

The Sabian Symbol for 17 Pisces, the most recurring degree in the arc, where Neptune receives both Mercury and Vesta in conjunction is: AN EASTER PARADE. Dane Rudhyar writes of this degree, “The Image of the Resurrection spurs all men within the pale of Christendom to appear at their very best and to dynamize themselves in some kind of self-renewal in response to the Christ mythos, and to the call of nature’s springtime as well.”

Religious impulse in the broadest sense is Neptune territory: faith, belief, aspiration toward the supramundane. Toss in obedience, and orthodox traditions require little else. Yet Abrahamic religions all have mystic, esoteric schools in which adherents train, in varying ways, higher faculties; guiding the conscious mind into an exalted state from which to contact the numinous. Within gnostic (from gnosis, literally “knowledge,” implying direct cognition of metaphysical truth) Christian tradition, the historically maligned authority was Mary Magdalene, whose report of having seen the risen Christ earned her the distinction “Apostle to the Apostles.” In one heretical text, Mary obliges their request to share her special knowledge:

“I saw the Lord in a vision and I said to him, ‘Lord, I saw you today in a vision.’
He answered, ‘How wonderful you are for not wavering at the sight of me! For where the mind is, there is the treasure.’
I said to him, ‘Lord, does a person who sees a vision see it with the soul or with the spirit?’
The Savior answered, ‘A person does not see with the soul or with the spirit.’ Rather the mind, which exists between these two.”

Mercury traverses all realms. If Neptune is the window that opens to the extraordinary, Mercury is the part of us that looks through it.

I find it interesting, in terms of this remarkable retrograde, that the spring festivals of Passover and Easter fall quite late in the season this year. The lunar cycles that determine their timing delay observance until the third week of April. The inrushing season is, in a sense, held in check; Mercury finally clears its back-end shadow to enter Aries on April 17.

Are we to take something with us into the new season, into the new astrological year, into the future, from this exceptional conjunction — the liminal space between worlds, where human thought and The Beyond are brought into what looks like an arranged marriage? Are we to reunite with some bit of our soul, to hold space for such a journey? Can we hold ourselves at all apart from the noise, the constant distractions of ‘reality’ that hypnotize us into a trance that keeps us from the transcendent?

I think we’re being encouraged to do just that, for good reason.

Accelerating chaos in the outer world requires dedicated focus to all that strengthens our own psychic wholeness, resilience and power. We’re ever more assaulted by stressful, overwhelming data, conflict and disharmony.

We more easily access higher levels of consciousness from a positive emotional state, yet our routine thought patterns make this an increasing challenge. To intentionally release worries and habitual thought loops is a skill that can be developed with discipline and devotion (Virgo, Vesta). Neptune’s highest vibration ripples through the pure love in The Absolution Pool. From there, we can traverse worlds with our mind. These are innate talents we are wise to develop.

We all have guidance available to us. I believe we are being given a sign that it’s time to start making use of it.

“First you dream it, then you live it.” The sequence is familiar in Science of Mind and personal development teachings. Toltec dreamers practice ‘planting a dream’, often with astonishing results. One needn’t be versed in Toltec tradition to understand the power of creative visualization, however. The threshold to our psychic depths, where hypnotic suggestion meets conscious creation on the imaginal plane, is the sweet spot where Mercury dives into Neptune for a swim.

More and more, conditions in the world encourage habitual inner dialogue that reinforces what amounts to a tiny fraction or our identity. To strive past that does involve an element of humility. When we do, we serve our own healing process and that of others (Virgo/Pisces).

Structures that support outer realities as we have known them are, indeed, transforming. We’re in a pivotal time; a threshold between worlds. Time itself feels dreamlike, and events blaring in our faces seem surreal.

Transcending karma, which is mostly momentum of repetitive patterns, is necessary.

To change the dream, we must wake up within it.

That’s what lucid dreaming’s all about.

Believe it.

Nothing Safer; photo by Amanda Painter.

When Standing Out May Be the Only Real Option

By Amanda Painter

When everyone around you is wounded and hurting, if you initiate and pursue your own healing it will probably make you stand out. I suspect countless people have had this thought before, but it came to mind as I was thinking about tomorrow’s conjunction of the Sun and Chiron in Aries. I don’t know how many people think of that possibility consciously before starting (for example) a therapy process; even if present unconsciously, however, I imagine it holds some people back.

Nothing Safer; photo by Amanda Painter.

Nothing Safer; photo by Amanda Painter.

Sun conjunct Chiron occurs at 2:38 pm EDT Friday (18:37:51 UTC).

And although it’s not in the very first degree of Aries, it is in the second degree, which is still Aries Point territory (the nexus of personal and political).

Whatever tomorrow’s astrology describes for you personally, it will likely resonate with issues that are prominent in our collective social environment right now.

This is the first conjunction of the Sun and Chiron in Aries since Chiron left Pisces for good on Feb. 18. As far as I can tell, it is the only conjunction these two bodies will have in the first five degrees of Aries for this particular journey of Chiron in Aries (though next year will come close; that one happens in the sixth degree of Aries).

My guess is that this means this year’s Sun-Chiron conjunction may ring the personal/collective Aries Point bell the loudest — though I don’t know for certain if it works that way. And who knows: maybe we will be able to hear the signal better once we’ve all gotten more used to this energy next year? After all, we’re also adjusting to Uranus in Taurus and wading through Mercury’s retrograde in Pisces, both of which seem to be having a slightly destabilizing effect on many people. Then again, when is there not something in the astrology describing things being off-kilter, or provocative, or confrontational, or energizing in some way?

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Reflections from the Perfectly Imperfect

By Amanda Painter

Have you ever looked at your reflection in the water with the Sun directly behind you? Your reflection ends up being mostly a silhouette that’s gently distorted by the movement of the water; and though you can’t see your own features very well, you can see all the color and detail of what’s behind you — it’s just softer than if you turned and looked directly at where you are.

Photo by Amanda Painter

Photo by Amanda Painter

It occurred to me this might be one way to think of tonight’s conjunction of the Sun with retrograde Mercury in Pisces.

Due to the compression of your perspective with the source of illumination, you may not be able to see yourself as others see you right now. Yet you might find a new, gentler appreciation for where you’ve been — a view with softer edges but no less imagination-sparking (or growth-sparking) insight.

After all, Mercury retrogrades really are about slowing down and reassessing more than they’re about everything getting glitchy and going to hell in a handbasket. As I saw suggested elsewhere, those hiccups are generally the result of us fallible humans refusing to slow down, pay closer attention, and retrace the steps that got us where we are now (or where we have been many times). It’s trendy these days, even for people who scoff at astrology, to blame everything that goes wrong on Mercury being retrograde — even when it isn’t.

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