Author Archives: Eric Francis

Running Away

By Jeanne Treadway

My skin literally crawls with itchy cravings. Nothing feels right. I’m too hot; my porridge is too cold. Phone calls end in tears of frustration because I simply cannot grasp the meaning of the words. I’m edgy, crazy-making emotional. My kitties and I barely avoid slamming into each other as I stomp off the same eleven yards, the longest path in my casita, over and over again. Molly and Lince slash their tails in double-time counterpoint to my forth and back, walk to sit, nine-year-old-on-a-rainy-day rhythm. When I reach the far end of my pathway, they blitz the antique love seat for a shriek-inducing claw-sharpening shred-fest. I’m acting up so they can too; it’s in our contract. This might be why I only live with cat companions. Gad, I annoy myself.

Epona doll by Jeanne Treadway.

There’s probably some notekeeper somewhere who assigns this moodiness to barometric pressure or seasonal affective disorder or insanity genes but that sort of understanding just increases my locked-jaw fierceness. No explanation but my own will serve. Hear me? I feel like my Epona doll: all dressed up raring to go, wind whistling though my hair, but stuck on a pony going absolutely nowhere. I wanna run away from home during this Silly Putty, stretch-my-soul-wide-open season we call spring.

Each year about this time I spend a couple weeks as mercurial as the weather. I dance and cavort to Big Mama’s siren-songs for ten minutes, then whooomph! somebody lets all the air out of my balloon. Laying down in the middle of the day is positively asking to be called old, so I lay down, leap up, lay down, leap up, then finally blaspheme everyone (in my head) who might be whispering a comment about my age and lay down for a few seconds.

I go into the kitchen to make lunch, wallow a moment in outrageous visions of headlining the All Girl Bodacious Extravaganza and Eternal Beltane Three-Ring Spectacle, pretending I look fetching in a peach tutu with red rhinestones, pink sequins and yellow glitter, then mosey back to the computer until my stomach startles me and Molly.

Years ago I perfected the queenly, figure 8 wave just so I’d be totally regal when I acknowledged the thunderous applause for my splendid derring-do but, alas, have yet to perform the beauteous ritual publicly. The truth is I’m just a tad less vigorous. Most of my body parts jiggle and I can’t stay up past 9:00 PM. It’s doubtful I’ll any day soon stun an audience with my superb back flip twist on a cantering palomino mare or regale more than a handful with my dandy lion taming outfit. Rats.

The good news here is I know there’s an end to this madness and I’ll neither belong in prison for the bodies I strew behind me nor in the psych ward for the non-sequiturial ramblings that unnerve so many. I recognize from experience there’s some wondrous thing abirthing; plus, there are always sublime moments awaiting me. For example, yesterday I finally wore myself out and gave up trying to control the jitters. I stepped outside to say an evening thank you and, there, with just a tiny, truly an infinitesimal tilt of my head, were ten gazillion katrillion breath-stopping stars winking at me. Ah, yes, I sigh. The Great Cosmic Reminder. Be easy, girlfriend. It’s all working just fine, thank you.

Winter Yields to Spring

By Jeanne Treadway

Photo by Jeanne Treadway.

When several robins whistled to each other this morning, right outside my window, those splendid cascading trills yanked my emotional bucket up a few notches from that frigid well of February moodiness. Yesterday, fumbling groceries from the car, I tripped over a hummock of damnable cheat grass that just heaved itself up outta winter’s belly. I forgot my gloves and it was okay. Instead of being pulled down around my ears every five minutes, my zebra-striped winter cap teetered unremembered on top of my head the whole day. Without noting the transition, I’ve shed layers from the coat, heavy sweater, sweater, big shirt, shirt, undershirt routine. Dang, girlfriend. Spring’s coming. Now, why ever would I have doubted that?

Without caring whether I love it or not, February does what it’s supposed to do: serve as an incubator for the next season. Gracefully and without my help, the Earth moves through her life cycles. One day it snows; the next it rains. That modest change in temperature signals the end of winter. Though I know I’ve got a minimum of three more weeks of winter and that it just might snow three feet three times each of the next three months, I modestly dance my heartfelt thanksgiving. I survived another February and here it is already March. It’s as if a scum washed itself from my eyes and everything is ever so much clearer today than yesterday.

Photo by Jeanne Treadway.

A dainty green shimmering around the chamisa delicately contrasts the draped sheep bones and cottonwood roots. My apple and peach trees clamor for pruning because their sap already runs more freely than mine. Can my 60-year-old girly girl arms pull my equally old butt up into that mare’s nest of branches? Most likely, but I gotta pay attention this year, I mean, really pay attention. And, look, the carefully stacked thirteen-stone cairns from Samhain still stand sentry at the gate. What else made it through the freezing, thawing muscle flexing of winter?

Flax, curly sage and wild snapdragon swish and flash their tiny green skirts and the precious pine siskins and lesser goldfinches need more nyger seed. Didn’t I fill that big feeder this morning? And, oh my gosh, there’s a stellar jay. Haven’t seen one of those pointy-headed guys in months (since last spring, most probably).

Real and exaggerated Sun-warmth tease winter-hardened joints into slightly more pop-and-crack activity. Lungs huff and puff sweet, soil-scented air, in, out, in, out. Heart expands with this season’s poignant potential beauty. My cranky thoughts give way to planning for August tomatoes and, as if she read my mind, Loretta, my friend and gardening mentor, fills my arms with seeds, growing medium, trays, lights and heating mats. With a passel of intelligent advice, honest laughter and abiding faith in the healing salve of lemon balm, she encourages spring’s renewal, and mine. Life is so tender and sweet.

 

Shifting the Trends

By Judith Gayle | Political Waves

I saw a new word announcing incoming stories on Yahoo today: trending. ‘Trending news,’ it read. That feels frivolous to me, like a topic we tweet or text about to enter the horse race of public opinion. Clearly, humankind loves its sociopolitical soap opera, even as we fume over its twist and turns, and these days there are more characters and opinions in our drama than we can sort out. Still, trending sounds to me like what Doug the Dog does — in Pixar’s lovely movie, Up — when he snaps his head around, mid-sentence and nose aquiver, yelping, “Squirrel!” Need examples? Anything about Sarah Palin, John Edwards or Jay Leno is a trend.

“..and Now The NEWS!” Photo by TouchingTheLight.

The news itself reflected a week of exhausting polarities. The headlines offered a snapshot of infighting, obstruction, proposed reforms whittled down to near-useless bits of busy work, and pundits blowing off steam in no uncertain terms. The government, they agree, is broken but that’s just a reflection of how stuck we are. If the government is broken, then we are, too. I’m not ready to throw in the towel, are you? It seems to me that things this month aren’t really worse than last, but that we have finally stumbled into a realistic assessment of our situation. Reality is raising its ugly head, or what serves as reality, anyhow. It remains to be seen if we will accept it, or instead, follow the trends.

Science used to be that bottom line beyond which we would no longer speculate, the reality that served as final arbiter to our world vision. Since science is both skeptical and conservative, one would think the Republicans would embrace it. They don’t. Scientific conclusions don’t work with their agenda, so they trend toward Biblical pronouncements about creationism, biology and global warming. They tweet and blog, they disparage and deride, they spin and jeer, in order to promote their alternative view. They gather supporters who don’t use logical sequence or scientific method to discover the specifics of their proposals; this is, they argue, a matter of faith. In 2010, matters of faith apparently have as much weight as scientific discovery. I’m stunned and appalled, of course.

Polls have shown that the majority in this nation favor creationism over evolution, a uniquely American belief with political ramifications for a world awaiting our participation in climate change leadership. Science, as hard-nosed as it can be, remains open to ongoing revelation in its push for the provable, while religion, or at least the version leading the conversation today, does not. Religion trends toward absolutism, which leaves no wiggle room for evolutionary change, which, of course, it’s against.

Consider the irony of finding ourselves in an evolutionary curve, unable to agree on evolution. Science pitted against religion is not a debate, it’s a war. Science and spirituality, however, have discovered a tentative partnership. Perhaps it’s the ability to explore revelation, push the boundaries of the known, that makes them useful to one another. Discoveries in quantum physics are revealing to the spiritual community, who have spent several decades questing for self-actualization, learning to establish their own spheres of influence and harness their dreams and desires. For instance, we now know that emotional response is part of our responsibility for creating our own lives, a factor we ignored in the past. Focus and intent seem to mean more than we knew.

Sometime in the future science will be able to create realities that we can’t even begin to imagine. As we evolve, we’ll be able to construct other information systems that correspond to other realities, universes based on logic completely different from ours and not based on space and time. Painting by Albert Bierstadt.

Robert Lanza, MD, disputes the Big Bang in his new book, Biocentrism, where he explores the theory that particles perform in direct response to their observer, and therefore something must observe them in order for them to exist. To those of us who don’t have a problem reconciling a creation story to our own larger philosophy, this may seem small potatoes, but to many it is not. In a recent article, Lanza quotes Emerson, who seemed to bridge the mystical and the scientific when he said, “Let man then learn the revelation of all nature and all thought to his heart; this, namely, that the Highest dwells with him, that the sources of nature are in his own mind.”

Neither pure science nor dogmatic religion will like Lanza’s theory, but the spiritual community may find it intriguing. Are Alpha and Omega, beginning and end, within us? Does science offer us a new, yet unformed mythology, here? This has the potential to be a reasonable step toward exploring some version of ‘intelligent design’, but first we’d have to let go of our old, dearly held mythologies to let in new information. And that’s the yowling cat in the bag. We need to understand that such a proposition is change with a capital C, an example of the actual heavy lifting we face at this moment. More than we realize, our mythology about who we are and what we’re about has brought us to this partisan wrestling match, grappling with who we will become. Of all the things shaking and rattling in 2010, our sense of self seems to be at the epicenter.

Although it seems difficult to conceive, mythologies come and go. The most obvious example is the centuries of blood and conquest required to integrate Christianity into Paganism as our supreme mythology. Surely a Shift of Ages would require such a social upheaval now as well, resulting in many 20th century myths dissolving, slowly and painfully, as have ours in these last few decades. The mythology of American superpower, for instance, seems all but a dead topic now that our economy is unstable. It’s apparent that America is no longer Number One, no matter who tries to spin it, nor is it a white, Christian nation. The ‘might makes right’ mythology that threatened to take us all to the brink in the last administration won’t be missed, but it brings us to an existential question: if might doesn’t make right, what does? These are mythologies in decline, awaiting a new iteration and not trending in the least. What we hear of them now feels old to us, archaic and outmoded. Maybe what’s broken isn’t government but our vision of ourselves.

Caroline Myss is a five-time New York Times bestselling author and internationally renowned speaker in the fields of human consciousness, spirituality and mysticism, health, energy medicine, and the science of medical intuition.

Spiritual teacher Caroline Myss calls these shifts of archetypes that hold our psychosocial fabric together “navigational indicators.” According to Myss, “A myth that gets dismantled has to be replaced by its next version, a more evolved story that can contain the magic and mysteries of the celestial world for us, the earth dwellers.”

And she lays out the mighty challenge of shifting them when she tells us, “It’s really incomprehensible to the ‘mind’ in us to realize that we are essentially ‘mythic’ creatures. There is not a word inclusive enough to communicate how controlled we are by our mythologies. We cannot function separated from our myths. Indeed, we literally are our myths and even to go near that truth can be an intimidating, alarming, or even, as wars so often prove, destructive proposition.”

If it’s new mythology we’re birthing now, a new template and design to overlay the old and take us into our future and purpose, then let’s use the scientific tools at hand. In physics, the particle is the unit of energy that is the building block of the Universe. The particle is infinitesimal but when aligned with like properties, it creates a wave of influence and outcome. The more particles collected together, the larger the wave. To illustrate, the 8.8 earthquake in Chile was a release of collective energy, and so was the ensuing tsunami.

Now, think of the particle as energy gathering around each of us and the dreams that we hold close to heart. We have a powerhouse of energy to direct, once we define it. The question is, have we mastered enough of our own internal mysteries and conundrums to acknowledge the mythical shifts we’re moving toward? Are we ready for a new design, hopefully an intelligent one? If we are, we must ignore the trending news that diverts us, and stop attending to the voices shouting “Squirrel!” every few minutes. Einstein told us that to get out of any situation, we couldn’t use the same thought process we used to create it. Each of us is required to help birth this new thing by keeping focus, imagination, intuition and loving intent foremost in our thoughts and dreams.

President Obama presented his final plan, and called on Congress to move forward and schedule a vote on health insurance reform in the next few weeks.

I listened to Obama stump for health care this week, telling us that standing by while people suffer and die because they can’t afford help is not what America is, nor what he will allow. He asserts, with some passion, that passing this legislation isn’t a political challenge, it’s a moral one. He wants the nation to step up to the change he’s offering, but we need to acknowledge that it’s a mythological clash he’s up against. Conservatives tell us they’re not responsible for their neighbors’ well-being, while the growing Tea Party movement tells us they don’t want government in their lives or their wallets. Many Democrats tippy-toe up to this challenge with all the confidence of a well-beaten pound puppy. The outcome is still uncertain, and it falls to ‘We, the People’ to decide who we are in this crisis, and what we’re going to become. Hovering over all are our Better Angels, asking us to think new thoughts and recognize the higher good that’s possible. We’re breaking a deadlock for the future. The navigational indicators of earlier generations will eventually morph in the hands of the Millennials, the young folks born mid-80s and after, who wait in the wings with open minds and expectations of helpful, committed government. Think of them when you hear big talk about what we’re leaving our kids and grandkids. Let’s leave them a way forward we can take some pride in.

In this moment of reinventing ourselves, it seems to me that if our hearts aren’t in this process, then what we produce will be heartless, emblematic of all we hope to leave behind. The polarity game will become less of a challenge if we refuse to play it. In this critical moment of becoming, we can put aside the distracting squirrels of fear and conflict in favor of holding firm to our vision and dream. We can seize this opportunity to deny hatred and division their hold by behaving with compassion and calm. We can tell the truth without allowing it to become a judgment, without yielding to those who survive on the energy they steal from others. We have to shift ourselves in order to usher in the new, so let’s create not simply a new day, but a new way forward. Let’s shift our weight toward the trending possibility of another Big Bang: let’s love ourselves, and our world, brand new again.

 

Planet Waves Inner Space Horoscope – March 2010

BY ERIC FRANCIS

Do you know those situations where someone holds in all their passion and energy for months on end, wanting to be well-behaved and spiritually pure and in control, and then one moment, under the influence of perhaps a little alcohol, decides to let it go all at once and do all kinds of crazy things and then wakes up and regrets it? I thought you might have heard of this. Whether you are the party type or not, this metaphor applies to your life. Mars retrograde is creating enormous tension for you, and the desire to cut loose. I suggest that as the next few weeks go on, you unfold yourself gradually, gently and intentionally releasing your energy in degrees rather than exploding with all your plans at once. In other words, for maximum fun and creativity, easy does it — for now.

Are these big fears you are confronting, or small ones? Is there really a difference? I would say not. Fear, insecurity, uncertainty, jealousy — it’s all the same thing, as far as your current situation is concerned. Dance with that for a moment; notice the specific elements that they all have in common, which elements may involve one of your parents. That is where we get most of our fears. You could say that it’s where we get most of our talents, except for one thing: talents are usually more difficult to acquire because they require the development of potential. Fears are generally easier to acquire because they have effects whether ‘true’ or not. I suggest you decide which you really want, and which you really don’t.

Be grateful that you’re having an issue seeing both sides of the story. I think one side of whatever it is you’re experiencing is enough to reveal the many facets of what you’re confronting in your life, mostly the truth that the world as you know it is the product of your ideas about yourself and about life. It’s really true that you seek completion and the full expression of your being through your ideas, whether you do this professionally or not. I suggest you keep your current search on the deeper level of a search for yourself rather than a search for ‘what is true about life’. See if you can eliminate any abstractions; go directly to your inner source; be yourself and describe your inner reality directly, persistently and most of all gently.

These have been weeks of contrast, and if my reading of your charts is vaguely accurate, you’ve made a good few choices about what you want and what you don’t want. You’re not done making these decisions — not only do I suggest you get used to the process, I suggest you embrace the necessity and beauty of a total reevaluation of your life. Everything you discover that you don’t like is coming up specifically so you can move on from that very thing and create room for what you desire. Further, you can subject to a conscious decision everything you discover that you don’t want to be true about yourself. Don’t just trust my word: try it and see.

Draw your energy close to your center, physically and spiritually. Be cautious what you reveal about yourself and your beliefs. Keep your body warm, including your extremities, but particularly your core temperature. Watch where your money goes, your effort, your energy, your thoughts. Be careful when others try to define you, and know this when you see it: specifically, beware of when others try to dictate what you want. By conserving your energy, you will be able to focus enough strength to tune into your long-term vision, and to shift your sense of identity in that direction. Over the next 10 days or so, you can tune in and feel the person you are becoming, and identify with that fully.

Who exactly is keeping secrets from you? Accuse who you will, but it would seem like you’re hiding hostility from yourself. Perhaps it’s about whether you feel fairly treated in a close relationship, which you are blaming yourself for. Alternately, it could be your deepening desire, indeed, your need, to transform yourself creatively or sexually, yet at the same time feeling like you’re obstructed from doing so. In either event, the main part of the blockage is your struggle to tell the truth to yourself. This truth may involve something you have long denied: a desire, a fact, an understanding with yourself that you came to previously, perhaps more than once. Be real with you, and grant yourself some relief.

Finally, you’re seeing that it’s healthy to invest some of your self-esteem in the service you offer to others; and that far from taking anything away from you, your ability to offer yourself is a gift you give to yourself. If you’re not quite seeing that, I would offer this as a proposal. The more you offer to the people you care about, and by more, I mean in terms of quality and innovation as much as in labor and effort, the more you will discover that you have, and that indeed, you are. We see the opposite equation play out too often, reinforcing a belief that to give is to lose. Yes, it’s important to give consciously and carefully, following an ethos of love.

Make your moves one at a time. Yes, work with a vision; work with a clear idea of what you want; but make one move at a time. Live one day at a time. Respond to something present in your environment that is actually present, rather than what you think might happen or are afraid will happen. Mars coming to a halt and changing directions on such a sensitive, personal angle of your chart (as Leo is for you) is going to have some strange effects, and one way to handle any potential distortion is to make deliberate moves close to where you are now. You will very likely feel the need to be impetuous; I strongly suggest you let your mind rule over your emotions.

While the ‘home’ angle of your chart — Pisces — is getting the really hot transits (Mercury, Jupiter, the Sun, Venus and Uranus, all at once) I would say that you feel the world is your home and your oyster and you are raring to go. I suggest you make contact with why: it’s the feeling of resonance with your environment, and of comfort with yourself, that’s drawing you into new experiences. This is a rare-enough experience for a human on the planet, particularly in a time when we are taught to perceive everything as a threat. Those who preach the doctrine of threat and danger are the ones who would do better to stay home. You are not playing this game, and if you’re sitting on the fence, I am here to tell you that a many-layered adventure is calling you.

Your friends love you, and they want to help make your life not just easier, but a celebration. Some of them have precisely the qualities you lack, or that you struggle with expressing, and that your current transits are doing their best to cultivate: unfettered passion, spontaneity and the ability to express yourself from the depth of your soul. You will benefit from the examples of those who have set aside or gone beyond their own struggle with freedom, recognizing it’s as much of a necessity as structures and boundaries. You have gone far enough in the direction of integrity, safety and purity. Naughtier times are calling your name.

If you are thinking about how to make money, take a day or two or better yet, three, and do what you want to do the most. Try this as an experiment. See how you feel. By ‘want to do the most’ I mean what gives you the most pleasure for the doing; what you yearn for; what you care about, regardless of its monetary value. I say this knowing that money is on your mind. I say this knowing, as well, that far more important things are on your mind — such as fulfilling your life purpose. I know that many who reach for their purpose seem to sacrifice financial wealth, but I am not here to speak for them, or to them. I am here to speak to you.

Drop your resistance and stay open to all the possibilities. Get used to this — a process of opening and allowing rather than trying to be pure or even positive. It is easy to allow the energy to flow through you and around you, and you may find it easier yet if I remind you that you are protected, that your life is in motion despite any appearances to the contrary, and that your deepest desires are resonating with the world around you. All you need to do is get out of your own way. Is this easier said than done? In theory, no; in reality, words and actions are closely related. Make a commitment to yourself. Recognize the incredible good that is around you; embrace the people who love you, and observe your life with the trust of a child.

Mars Direct and the Virgo Full Moon

Dear Planet Waves Reader:

We’re near the end of a long, challenging Mars retrograde; the exact station-direct is March 10. This has been in the background all winter, slowly working its mysterious effects: most of them emotional.

Lakshmi Girl in the Chironian, Rosendale, New York. Photo by Eric Francis / Book of Blue.

Now that we’re at the dregs of the retrograde, the sensation ranges from not being able to get anything done, to determination to accomplish exactly what you need (which may or may not be working — time will tell). This Mars event has the odd feeling of Mercury retrograde; I thought I was dreaming and then other astrologers started to point out the same thing.

When the process unhooks, we’re likely to make a series of discoveries, and there will be plenty of room for more mistakes. Therefore, in the weeks after the retrograde, proceed with caution, especially where making commitments and acting on your desires are involved.

In psychological terms, you may be feeling frustration over direction, initiative and/or desire. This is a struggle with expressing the vital force, as described by retrograde Mars (expression, initiative) in Leo (the sign of the vital force). Humans tend to have a hard time with this anyway; what do we want, and what are we ‘supposed to’ do? More to the point lately, who are we ‘supposed to’ be? Who exactly is doing the supposing?

Contemplating this is often a job handed to astrology: astrologers are always being asked to ‘tell me about me’. For sure, there are things that astrologers can tell their clients that are helpful, though once involved, it’s crucial to do one’s best to help people in their process of self-discovery, rather than get in the way. I would reckon that astrology has done both in equal measures, at best.

The old, old question of fate versus free will is still getting dragged into astrology (and existence) in the form of this issue about who we are ‘supposed to be’. We’ve lived too many lifetimes to play this game, and I do mean thousands. No matter what, the answer to that always comes from inside. Even if some external circumstance led one in the direction of a discovery, the awareness is internal, as is the choice to act on it.

Ceremonial fire in the Chironian fireplace, Rosendale, New York. Photo by Eric Francis.

Mars retrograde is pulling volition into the pit of the psyche (or finding it there, where it originates), where it belongs, and reminding us that to know what we want we must make contact with who we are. Who you are is true no matter what anyone says, thinks, feels or wants; and if you have someone in your life who you think is determining who you are, there is just one way that is possible.

Mars stationing direct in the first degree of Leo is all about desire, motivation and identity — and the place in awareness where the three meet.

Raising this theme sometimes feels like teaching people who are numb from the neck down how to dance. So many influences have convinced us we don’t know who we are or what we want that most people have actually forgotten that it’s possible. But Mars retrograde is pushing the issue to an extreme.

Mars is going to sit in the same degree of Leo for an astonishing 22 days — the very first degree — between Feb 28 and March 22. I say astonishing not because of the duration (that is always true) but because of the vortex-like quality of that degree.

Mars won’t exactly be at a halt (when you plot them on a graph, planetary stations with the exception of Eris appear to be instantaneous). But Mars will be moving slowly and shall we say in a way that is significant of precisely the kind of struggle that defines our time in the human story: our control drama with passion, even the simplest-feeling sensation.

With or without Mars, the first degree of Leo is a hot spot in the zodiac; add Mars retrograde drawing to a close and turning around in this degree and we get a potentially dangerous surge of biopsychic energy.

Invasion of Earth. 1962 Topps Mars Attacks: a science fiction trading card.

Yesterday I was in a full-day workshop with Rick Tarnas, author of Cosmos and Psyche, on the comic genius archetype. One of his subjects was John Cleese of the Monty Python troupe, who is a specialist in sexual humor in a way that only a Brit could be capable of. I looked around; the view was like a room full of ladies who had just sucked on lemon slices, dutifully taking notes.

When we look back at this time in history, we’re going to get nauseous at how noncommittal, uptight, shut down and glazed over we were. I have finally started to laugh at the letters that come in that begin, “I’m no prude, but –”

We’re about to experience a series of energy surges, all of them involving Mars and Aries. To those who are shut down, they may feel like a case of apoplexy, and may be equally dangerous. If you’re at war with your energy rising, with change, with passion, with creative flow or with sexual feelings and ideas, and then if they suddenly gush out of the ground of your being, that could be frightening. If you’re resisting, I suggest you ask yourself why; what you think you’re protecting, or what you’re gaining. There is probably an answer; you may decide it’s an excuse.

I’ve described many times the ways in which this spring is an extraordinary moment. It’s the first full blossoming of 2012 energy, and everyone is wondering what that mystery is about. This is a little like explaining the Sixties to someone in 1962. There was a vibe in the air some places, Bob Dylan had left Hibbing for New York, and whether people recognized it or not, everything was about to change really fast. We have that vibe in the air right now, and it may be the inspiration for the conservative backlash. Many people missed the Sixties because they were so scared of the changes and the potential.

Remember that Mars stationing direct ties directly into the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction in the first degree of Aries on June 8. The connection is that all this Mars energy transposes into an event in Aries, ruled by Mars, just a little while later. We have some ground to cover before we get there: currently Venus, Jupiter and Uranus are in Pisces. This is an invitation to visualize what it would be like to be free; to visualize what you want; to imagine what it would be like to be solid in yourself, and your ‘sense of self’.

Once these planets move into the fire signs (particularly Jupiter and Uranus, moving into Aries), the pace of movement will pick up dramatically, with time and progress taking a surge forward. This includes progress for people who don’t necessarily define progress the same way you do. Just the other day, Mr. Beck was describing the ‘progressive’ as a sickness. Aries can be militant, hard-headed and crude; but this conjunction is an invitation to brilliance, enlightenment, awareness and a sense of liberty.

Whichever way it tends, we will experience a radicalizing energy that wants to blow the dust (and whatever else) out of the corners of our reality and acquaint us with the light of awareness.

Coming Right Up: the Virgo Full Moon

Sunday morning in the US, evening in the UK and Europe, is the Virgo Full Moon. That means the Moon in Virgo and the Sun in Pisces meet at an exact opposition. At that moment the Sun is conjunct Jupiter — this is a gorgeous chart, brimming with watery energy, fresh and alive with airy energy, grounded by Pluto in Capricorn and containing potent fiery energy in the small planets (Eris, Pholus, Ceres and Vesta). This event is the first full expression of Jupiter in Pisces energy.

Virgo Full Moon opposite Jupiter in Pisces.

There’s something special about each of the personal planets. Mercury is aligned with the Chiron-Neptune conjunction in Aquarius. Venus is about to make a conjunction to Uranus. Mars is in the process of stationing direct. Ceres, both a dwarf planet and a personal planet, is aligned with the Galactic Core, incarnating in her role as cosmic mother.

When you combine inner or personal planets with outer or cultural/generational planets, the effect is to personalize the energy. We go to the gods or the gods come to us (depending on your perspective, or the circumstances) but the effect is that the extraordinary can show up — it’s no longer just a theory or a concept; things that seemed impossible in the past manifest in the present.

Vesta, a kind of high priestess of sexuality, is doing something I’ve not mentioned yet — she’s in a long conjunction with a hypothetical point called Transpluto. (Transpluto ‘exists’ but only in mathematics and on paper, and more to the point, in the minds of astrologers who use it.) Without delineating both points (I’ve written lots about Vesta, easy to Google), this is referencing a specific area of sexual healing, which will help you identify and heal a particular aspect of your erotic consciousness or identity.

I’ve been testing Transpluto for well over a year. This is the thing that brings the narrow focus and the suggestion that you are looking for something precise that you want, need or will benefit from. Vesta is the servant of the creative fire, the core fire of existence that is inherently creative, erotic and aware. Vesta’s devotional energy is a reminder that if we want this flame to burn cleanly, we need to focus on that desire as a daily and even hourly activity. This is going on at the far end of Leo, while Mars stationing (also significant of a specific healing of desire) is at the early end. The gift of anything Leo is self-knowledge.

I have an idea what this theme or issue may be. It involves releasing the pain of secrecy and concealment. It’s not just you. Nearly everyone is keeping sexual secrets that are very much constraining their life force and making them feel like some kind of fugitive. We all know on the deepest level that it’s our birthright to be free, to give ourselves, to share ourselves and most of all to be authentically who we are.

Take comfort in the fact that minds are joined. Everyone knows everything about you that is relevant to them, or they will soon know it. There is no point wrapping yourself in anything but light. Remember, love brings up everything unlike itself, so if that light casts a shadow, look at it, remember you saw it, and let yourself go.

Peace & passion,

 

We Have Met The Enemy

By Judith Gayle | Political Waves

I suppose the winter of 2010 will be one of those talked about in future years. The amount of cold and snow, rain and frost has set records nationwide, making it feel like one of the longest winter seasons in memory. It’s only February, of course, and there’s plenty more to come. As well, the public is withering under a kind of winter mentality right now, gloomy and dug in, awaiting the next onslaught of actual storm or political sturm, whichever comes first. Here’s the question: are we hunkered down in our discontented winter because politics is finally personal, as we’ve reluctantly recognized the social disparities that drive our daily existence and our anxiety? Or is all this transitory, due to ease itself when spring comes, lifting our spirits with sunshine and new growth? I think the answer is both, but perhaps not in equal proportions.

Tweaks to children’s diet can make a positive difference in their health, Michelle Obama told CNN’s Larry King.

Spring will certainly bring relief from utility bills that require one to choose between food or heat, to emergency services our local communities can no longer afford. Spring may encourage us to grow some of the fresh food that we find too pricey to buy, or perhaps frequent the local farmers’ market looking for a deal. As Michelle Obama addresses the childhood obesity issues we’ve long ignored, I hope she takes into consideration the expense of eating well. For the price of a bunch of broccoli and a bag of apples, food stamps can purchase a couple of frozen pizzas, a supersized bag of chips and the generic version of several Twinkies. If we’re trying to stretch a meal, junk is considerably more elastic. Yes, spring will put a little bounce in our step, but where will we be bouncing to, I wonder? Maybe we’ll be bouncing in place, wondering when the internal winter gloom that comes with anxious times is finally going to leave us.

Politics has become personal if you find yourself under- or unemployed, if you need government assistance to feed your family, if you have no health insurance or discover that your rates have gone up by 39%. It’s personal if your mortgage is ‘underwater,’ your job funding threatened or your credit cards maxed with 30% interest rates. It’s personal if you need more than one hand to count the friends and family in dire straits, discovering yourself helpless to assist them. Politics is also local. 48 states currently count themselves in crisis. The Red states are determined to cut vital services rather than go after the tax base that enjoys the benefit of Bush’s business entitlements. Those who would turn off street lights, close libraries, underfund court systems and slash childhood health, education and nutrition programs rather than tap the wealthy are known as “deficit peacocks.”

Continued at this link…

 

Weekly Horoscope for Friday, February 26, 2010, #806 – BY ERIC FRANCIS

You’re discovering what a lusty personality you have. In fact, it’s more like a lusty soul, craving existence. You have no special need to determine that your passion for life is somehow inappropriate: it’s no more so than breathing. Once you get judgment out of the way, the only remaining question is how to manifest your desires from the psychic realm to the physical realm. I suggest that you stay close to your feelings and learn to saturate your emotional vibration with the feeling of who and what you desire. Build up your charge like a battery (or more technically a capacitor). Allow the energy you carry to be a clear image of the feeling and the desire of what you want. Craving is good, but embrace the pleasure of consciously allowing yourself to want; then we shall see what happens.

You’re moving into transcendent territory regarding the work that you do. I keep talking about this; maybe it’s because so many of my Taurus friends live with perennial career struggle. However, this is the time to come to the realizations that make the commitment to who you are and what you want to do seem natural. Beware that in our monoculture, we believe that there’s just one thing, which can lead to a search for ‘the one’. As far as I can tell, what you are going for is a quality of devotion to existence, as expressed through creative activity and service. Read that three times. The objective is a quality of devotion. To existence. As expressed. Through creative activity and service. I am familiar with life on your planet, and I know how weird that seems — till you get into it.

There are times when those twins inside you get together and get it on, and you’re in one of those moments. By that token, the Taurus horoscope would apply to you word for word, though what we need to add is the faith factor. This is an internal consciousness which generally cannot be spoken or described in words, but which is experienced as a sense of moving from your center. Any external spiritual practice, from lighting a candle to meeting a guru, is designed to bring awareness inward to your center point. Please remember this. You contain who you are, and therefore you contain what you seek. Move from the interior of your awareness outward. That is to say, focus on yourself and your feelings and let this experience spread outward into the world around you.

There are rewards for clarifying agreements, plugging holes, and remaining independent of group dynamics. These will be significant; give it a little time. Lately you may seem to be taking three steps back for every step you take forward. This won’t last much longer, though you need to take the forward steps consciously. Your sign is ruled by the Moon, which is about to be full in Virgo: that’s a surge of mental energy, which may be destabilizing. Therefore, you must balance the cyclical nature of the Moon with the stability of Saturn, so that you can take advantage of both inspiration and discipline; or rather, so that your creative power can take advantage of the structure that will contain your ideas and your sensations. I can sum up Saturn’s message for you in two words: stay grounded.

These weeks of Mars retrograde in your sign have not been easy. You seem to have something new to get clear about every day; you seem to have to work out some new wrinkle in your psyche every hour or two. Your energy may be all over the place and you may have some adrenal exhaustion. Mars retrograde is the picture of resistance; there are many ways to address that, though at this point the best way would be to not resist that particular quality. I am more concerned about what happens when Mars stations direct on March 10, which I would sum up as: take things gradually and consciously and slowly as you resume your forward motion. You may feel inclined to bounce right into action, and I would say, a subtle shift of momentum is more than enough.

Virgo is one of the easiest signs, or energies, to stress out; it can also handle a high volume of activity, though it helps a lot if the energy is turned down. The computer I’m now working on quite literally would have occupied a warehouse 50 years ago, with less processing power and less memory but consuming far more energy. I can now carry it in a nifty shoulder bag, and it runs on a battery. Think of yourself as this next epoch of technology: the energy-efficient, compact unit. There will be times during the next few days that you’ll need to turn down the energy input; turn down the volume; keep earplugs in your pocket and use them anyplace it gets too noisy. Likewise, the results of your thought process may be subtle, solutions that work because they have leverage rather than drama.

Do you think of yourself as an idea person? Probably, but you may not be too confident about it. Your idea process is subtle, and maybe in the long run better if you don’t fly that as a flag. However, you are very much in the role of idea person right now, and for quite a while to come. I hope it doesn’t add too much pressure to say that people are depending on you, particularly where you work. Ideas can be original, and they can be original applications of old concepts; an idea can be as simple and as effective as putting flowers in a vase. Remember that you have this perceptive ability, and you are a likely source of resolving something that others perceive as difficult, or cannot perceive at all. Seeing any problem accurately is at least halfway to solving it.

It’s not that you’re working without a goal; more likely, you’re looking in the wrong direction — toward the past. I say this recognizing that Scorpio’s tendency to be set in old patterns of thought is pretty amazing, given that yours is the sign of transformation and evolution. What you are transforming is precisely your mental process. You may get nervous every time you step out of your cautious mental framework. But let’s put it this way: Google, as clever and effective as it is, was built on a simple old idea: cross-referencing, applied to a new environment. Think of your conservative mind as a foundation from which you can take a certain leap of faith. You invest a lot of time thinking, without necessarily recognizing that the result of thought is an idea that allows you to save months or years of labor. This is a lot easier than you make it.

You may be concerned that your relatively new stable environment is going to suddenly be disrupted. That’s always a risk when you reach a place of stability, however there are a few kinds of instability: one is disruption, which while often helpful in the end, can be difficult; yet worse is the expectation of a potential problem. The other kind of instability involves moving toward an emotional or creative breakthrough, which results specifically in freedom. Anticipation of this kind of change can be equally destabilizing, and it’s often considered a reason to avoid passion or inspiration. I suggest you live with the tension for a while and discover what you have on the way without torturing yourself with negative expectation. Various supportive factors say you’re perfectly safe; you can even leave the house, if you want.

For a while, you get to do the pushing — or rather, you now need to. Certain factors that had you at the edge of your limits have eased off, and you’re left to your own strength, ingenuity and willingness to make progress. This is a test of how strong and how determined you’ve become, and you may be surprised at the outcome. You may feel like you’re burrowing through your own emotional body, passing through layer after layer of mixed feelings. You may feel like your progress is obstructed by the weight and substance of the past, but in reality this is a mirage. You may believe that the perfect partner is going to show up to help you, however, certain people you care about have plenty else on their minds. So now you get to give it a go, seemingly without support. That’s the place to start: simply be willing to take your first steps as an independent agent.

It’s amazing how useful mild irritation can be, if you put it to work. The kind of irritation you’ve been accustomed to lately is the type that’s difficult to do anything about because it’s been so difficult to pin down. You now may be noticing how a communication breakdown in a relationship is limiting your other possibilities; and further, that it’s about more than communication. Relating implies that there’s something to relate and that’s the factor that someone close to you may be finding in short supply. It’s not you: you have plenty to offer. Ask yourself where offering your creative energy results in the most palpable exchange. An exchange is a cycle with momentum, not merely passing something back and forth. Be sensitive to where momentum is building and where it’s dissipating and you will know exactly what to do.

You pave the road to the future with your feelings today. You may well ask how you’re supposed to do that: how exactly you can do that. The method is emphasizing the positive: what works for you, what you recognize as helpful, what provides you with benefits that nourish you and the people around you. At the moment this is a matter of emphasis: you will see what you focus on. What you focus on will magnify. Therefore, the art of seeing, of noticing, and of responding to what your sensory and emotional data provide, is vital now. Yet there’s also a higher level: the level of holding a vision. You know what you want. I suggest you be bold enough to articulate this to yourself, and listen to what you’re saying; and from there, to take action and do something about it.

Planet Waves Monthly Horoscope – March 2010

Dear Friend and Reader:

I hope you’ve taken dozens of workshops and gone to yoga class three times a week for at least five years and been devoted to your live juicing, your mantra, your karma and extra vitamin D, because all of a sudden it’s going to come in handy all at once.

March is the month of the Northern Hemisphere spring equinox, when the Sun enters Aries. Spring 2010 is the season that we make our first very close pass to this thing being called 2012. I’ll get to that in a moment: first let’s consider the immediate news.

The Sun is now in Pisces, the last sign. This may be a reflective time, as Pisces is one of the signs of completion, but it holds a strong memory of the past. Like with seawater, you can find every element in Pisces: traces of every planet and sign. This is overwhelming to some people: a kind of emotional saturation can accompany Pisces, bringing with it the potential for maddening instability and equally mad passion. There is creative freedom in Pisces, though it’s essential to work with some kind of container: a narrative, an agreement, a time boundary — and a focus on pleasure, while you also may be busy focusing on solving problems.

On March 10, Mars stations direct. This is the last bit of the winter 2010 astrology working itself out. Do you remember the stress factor back in December and January? It may seem like a distant memory now, but your body remembers; and the last of that energy is bottled up in Mars, which has been retrograde since the winter solstice. This has been a long, long sorting out of what we want, and for some, the discovery of their desire.

For some this has involved determining what they don’t want; for others, a struggle to come to grips with the truth of their needs. I suggest you translate this into the most positive terms that you can: just admit what you want and set that as a goal. On this plane of reality, there is little more powerful than human desire; but we tend to complicate it with guilt. Now, if you’ve been involved on any spiritual path at all, you know the negative power of guilt and the supreme importance of getting this emotion out of the way, which paves the way for everything better.

Look for this inner conversation to come to a peak around the 10th.

This gives way to the mighty spring equinox, when the Sun moves over the Aries Point and aligns with the planets already gathering for the 2012 celebration. Yet this is nothing compared to what happens in mid-June; and while that may seem far off, astrology is a seasonal tool: and the outset of the spring is the time to consider the whole season. And, to put it in mild terms, the energy explodes this spring: so much that has been pent up for so long comes out, and comes out all at once. This is about the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction in Aries.

We will learn something about our boundaries and, in truth, something about how hung up we’ve been. Nobody wants to be tangled in their own desires or scared of their own potential, though there are so many influences in that direction we can’t even keep track of them. This spring, the planets align day after day to bring us out of this dark dream, and into some of the promise of self-awareness, community and bold humanity that we in truth carry and possess within ourselves.

More at Planet Waves Daily Astrology and Adventure.

Yours & truly,

 

What you need to conclude the matter is to begin. That is often the way of endings, and that’s how it is now: to resolve or free yourself from the past, reach for the beginning and commence. You are likely to experience one or two significant moments of insecurity as you do, which I would classify as a false lack of confidence. One may involve money, that is, the idea that you don’t have enough of it or you can’t handle yourself. That is part of the risk. In business, there tend to be two kinds of ventures: someone’s father-in-law buys them the whole thing; or someone starts with a roll of postage stamps, a used computer and an idea. You are better suited for the second kind, the one that takes more nerve and leaves you with your independence. I’m not sure you’re the guardian angel type, but if you are, you can trust those critters — you seem to have two of them watching over you. I know you’re wondering whether you’re really fated to survive or succeed; I suggest you put all of your energy into trust and as little as possible into worrying. The people around you are committed, and everyone is ready for change, if you will stand up and lead the way. Progress is focused around the 10th, when Mars stations direct, and the 20th, when the Sun enters your sign.

Stop hopping and walk on both feet. Just because you don’t know something doesn’t mean you won’t find the solution; to the contrary, you’re all the more likely to discover it because you know that you don’t know. As usual, the main thing standing between you and your own intelligence is fear. I don’t think you’ve quite discovered that rather than solving anything, fear scatters your intelligence and shatters your confidence. In case you ‘get that intellectually’ but need it explained to you on another level, fear is simply negative expectation. Such never creates a positive outcome. Something else always does. The calculus that you tend to run is: if something changes, the change will be for the worse. Therefore, it’s better not to change. This, consequently, blocks your eagerly-wished-for or sought-after progress. Frankly, this is a lame excuse not to make your life a better place. Those steps begin with committing to guiding your life with something besides insecurity. What would that something be? Tangible, focused, unfettered desire. Set a goal and work for it. It does not matter what — as long as it’s something you want specifically. For example, don’t try to ‘get a job’, aim for exactly the work you want to do. Focus your intentions; know what you want, and act on it. This will take up all that space that fear was taking from you.

The whole spiritual thing seems to confuse you; however, it’s clearly growing on you. Think of it as a level of thought without words: a dimension of concept free from structure. Think of it as an opening in your mind, and what comes through is living information. If you relax and allow and let go, this information will help you structure your other ideas and indeed your whole life around it. If you want to live for a principle, this is the one: the steady flow of energy that’s the essence of consciousness itself. Meanwhile, in the outer world, focus on cooperation. Move past out-dated acquaintances and stale hostilities quickly. Don’t hold onto them; let them go with the ease of exhaling. Make a habit of transitions. Know when the time for something has arrived, and when it is up. You are preparing for one particular transition that you may not know about yet. It involves the work you do. Themes involve 1) doing something with this brilliant quality you have of not fitting in and 2) focusing your misty notion of a goal into a clear sense of mission that is guided by the living information. This will require trust because you will be making moves that are not preceded by the usual astonishing amount of mental chatter and debate. You will simply know and trust. The time has come.

Get ready to make the big moves: a series of them, which coincide with a sequence of events focused on your house of career and reputation. Prepare to depart from hangups about money and confidence and notions of your mission being too weird or unattainable. The first thing you are claiming as part of this process is your originality. In case you haven’t experienced it personally, consciously, originality doesn’t feel like you think it will. It has two main properties: a feeling of fun, and a sense of clarity. And I would add: function. There won’t be a professor looking over his glasses saying, ‘That is original’. The feeling comes come from you. It may be subtle. If you get the message ‘hot idea, let’s do this’, then do it. Give yourself permission to act, to initiate, to be different. One of the inner entities you must address is the part of you obsessed with self-control. Ask yourself what kind of authority you want to be in your own life. Since you’re in the position of being your own boss, what kind of boss do you want? You have a variety of choices. One of them is whether to orient on the past or the future. Another is to state your desires as an affirmation or as a negative; to deny or to desire. Finally, how do you plan to work with the limited time you have? Consciously, or not?

Through the winter you’ve been focused on some close-to-home, practical matters: emotional, mental, inner stuff based on simple necessity. Over the next few weeks, your orientation shifts rapidly, seemingly to bigger dreams and a bolder vision, but in truth a new alignment with yourself. This involves Mars stationing direct in Leo; to be precise, in the first degree of Leo; and over the next two months Mars will move clear through your sign. You’re likely to feel a lot of fiery motivation to achieve many things at once. I suggest you take this process one goal at a time, starting with modest ones; one day at a time; and keep sight of your earlier set of priorities involving your inner work. You have an opportunity to define an objective, then align your energy with it. Think of this like standing straight and aligning your spine; only it’s with energy. As you do this, bear in mind what’s drawing you toward the future. Something is; but you may think you don’t know. You do know, and so do the people around you. Don’t keep this secret from yourself. This is not the time to indulge yourself in mystery; there is plenty of that in life, if it’s what you want. You will be stronger and have more access to your motivation if you move with conscious awareness of your inner truth.

To what extent do you allow others to define who you are? And if you’re the one doing the allowing, isn’t this a kind of farce? You don’t need to negotiate for your identity. This includes with yourself. You don’t need to get it back from anyone who has it. You don’t need to ‘look for your identity in others’, though you can use them as a foil, as a barometer or as a reality check. Looking at your charts this month, a theme stands out boldly, which is the abject fear — I could use much stronger words, but I will not — of losing yourself in another. This might be the fear of being possessed by another, the fear of having someone else control you, or of making a commitment that you cannot get out of, and which compromises your freedom. Yet closer to home is the fear that you have to seek yourself in another; that somehow, you cannot find yourself without the benefit of a relationship. Imagine the challenge you might face with boundaries in any relationship, or in any committed situation, if you have any of these beliefs working silently in the background, in effect undermining your right to exist. In my reading, the planets say thus: notice what feels missing within yourself. Rather than ask where it went, ask how it could have gone anywhere at all.

The revolution in your relationships begins right about now. While it would be difficult to overstate the case of what is brewing and shaking in your personal affairs, I have been doing my best to explain the process more in the style of water than of fire. Be aware of potential stress points within yourself, which is the tension between changing and staying the same. You may not be feeling it yet in such vivid terms. Yet beginning this month as planets, and I do mean Planets, begin to move into your opposite sign Aries, the energy is going to mount. You will be looking at options you never dreamed of. Well, sorry for underestimating you. You may have dreamed of them but are unlikely to have thought you might actually be handed the options. In the external world, this could represent literally any creative potential in any relationship; any invention; any incredible meeting. Internally, you have two main choices: resist at all costs, or choose. Resistance is likely to come in the form of a high-energy struggle with making a decision; conscious choice will arrive with a feeling of your own influence in your own life-flow. I say this well versed in all the various [mostly true] prejudices about Libra and decision-making. I can assure you of this, no prejudice can substitute for your full and conscious presence in the moment.

This is one of those months wherein you’re likely to have an overwhelming amount of stuff to do. However, among the many things that are not predestined is what you choose to do with your time and energy. Another is what basis you would use to decide. The important thing to remember is that you decide. To the extent that you’re feeling a calling to leadership, it’s the leadership of making decisions, particularly about your most meaningful goals. You do not merely seek activity; so far as I can tell, you seek a connection to existence on the level of purpose. Moreover, your ‘identity’ must be connected to that purpose, and that purpose is an expression of your identity. Get rid of any lingering abstract notions; you came here to do what you came here to do, and nothing less. The ‘activity’ angle of your chart comes under increasing focus as the spring unfolds. This is fiery energy, which resonates deeply with you because of your sign’s connection to the original arsonist of astrology, Mars. This moment in your life is offering you many unique pleasures, but you’ll miss the point if you feel like you’re being pushed beyond your limits. I’m reminded of some words written by a very young Allen Ginsberg: “Only return of thought to / its source will complete thought. / Only return of activity / to its source will complete /activity. Listen to that.”

It took the petroleum industry a while to get gasoline to burn slowly and evenly, without adding extremely toxic lead. Now you can go to a fuel pump and choose your octane level. Yet most people don’t know that gasoline itself was originally a waste product of the petroleum industry, burned by the ton until it went on to become the main event. Your life parallels all of these developments. You need to go for the slow burn in whatever you do: even, efficient and just hot enough to make full use of your fuel. You need to make careful use of waste products, and see their potential sooner rather than later. Take beginnings slowly, not quickly. Accelerate evenly. Slow down early. Follow at a safe distance. Practice all of this when you drive. Use the metaphor of manual shift; the automatic transmission has been horrid for driving skills. In sum, the planets are suggesting that you’re about to experience a surge of energy, a release from the past and a willingness to take new risks and have new experiences. You can afford to take this slowly, moving from idea to gesture to experiment. Remember that you are handling live flame and potentially live ammunition. I am not saying be obsessed with control, but you will benefit from being obsessed with awareness. Monitor your changes carefully and make sure you’re heading in exactly the direction you want.

The pressure comes on, then it comes off. Then it’s back. You deal with it just fine, though I suggest you take over this process internally, rather than constantly dealing with ‘circumstances’. True, there is plenty going on in your world. You’re being summoned to take up true authority, though that is merely a figment of the changes you are going through internally. This, during what turns out to be the most rapid acceleration of growth of your life. While the impulse to grow and grow and grow isn’t going to end anytime soon, you’re still at the beginning: in the pattern-setting mode, creating a new set of skills to help you adopt to constant internal movement. You’re also in the goal-setting phase, staging an insurrection against your parents, against society and against any expectations that have ever been laid on you. Yet you cannot simply get rid of these seemingly external influences; learning goal #1 goes something like this: You took on plenty of what was not your own, and then it became your own, and now you’re going the whole distance on claiming that fact and taking on the full power to set your own agenda. Remember that this is a growth agenda first, and worldly agenda second. I can’t say that often enough. If you proceed in that order, you will be unstoppable, and that (if you ask me) will be good for everyone.

There are certain details of a partnership or contractual arrangement that you can now resolve, though I would offer you one reminder. Consensus, or mutual agreement, is reached based on values. The specifics tend to follow gracefully once the fundamental values are understood and agreed to by all the parties involved. You and a partner may have a tendency to re-hash details lingering from a prior incarnation of the discussion. Plenty seems unresolved; but in many ways the details are irrelevant. In making a return to this subject, I suggest you work with a goal of going to the next level: that is, a deeper level. What are your shared goals? What meaning do you both agree is of primary importance? A conversation focused on circumstantial details will likely evade the deeper ones. In your case, deeper means really deep. In a sense, it’s fair to say that no other person is involved; any involvement with anyone else is superficial when contrasted to the inner depths you are being summoned to plumb by your own soul. What you’re seeing on the display screen of the outer world is a kind of projection of your distant past, including that of your family. I could probably write a book chapter about this based on this month’s charts, but I will sum it up in a question: what is the true nature of commitment? Clue: take the issue back one century, or three generations.

It’s time to consider the concept ‘selfish’ with only the most positive implications. You have a need to take care of others; that goes without saying. Yet the time has arrived for this in no way, form or design to include the concept of being a victim of that impulse. Therefore, put yourself and your needs first. This is in service of your greater agenda: the whole thing. At this point you may still be wavering on the notion of prioritizing your personal agenda, whatever that might be. The logic might not be clear, though your resentment level is the most accurate measure of whether you need to adjust your course. There’s nothing violent or dramatic about this, though you may secretly fear reprisal: deal with that issue. I am suggesting a day-to-day exercise that will guide you to make different decisions than you’ve made in the past. Whatever you may think now, by the time Jupiter and Uranus arrive in Aries later in the spring, a new kind of logic will take over your life. You can wait, but you’ve had many tests of your prior logic, and you keep coming up with the same basic results. Underneath all your emotions and reactions and ideas about what you may want is a question: how could it be vaguely possible that your life doesn’t matter? Get this one right and you will finally feel like you’ve pointed your airplane down the runway.

The One and the Many

Dear Planet Waves Subscriber:

The other day, an email came floating into my inbox from a website called Care2, a green-styled corporate site purportedly dedicated to saving the world, claiming 12.5 million subscribers. The subject header of the email read, “Monogamy vs. Polyamory: Do Open Relationships Work?”

Planet Waves
View from train bridge, Rosendale, NY. Photo by Eric Francis.

Naturally, I thought: this ought to be pretty interesting.

The writer gave her analysis a title like a boxing match or a legal case. Mono versus Poly is now in session! All Rise! The article commenced as such (literally, its first words): “Non-monogamy is about one thing — sex. And sex is good.”

(You can tell she learned her writing style from The Bible.)

It went downhill from there, fast. Faster than I ever thought possible without jet propulsion and a lot of lube. “And sex with different people — either concurrently or over the course of a lifetime — is good too. Sex is so good that some people are addicted to it. Sex makes people do crazy things and it makes people feel amazing things. I love it just as much as anyone else, but there is more to life than sex.”

When you see the word ‘but’ you can usually tell how things are going to go. Her premise is that since polyamory is about sex, and since sex isn’t everything, polyamory is nothing special to concern oneself with. The author, whose name is Polly, continues: “I am pretty sure that the words on your deathbed won’t be, ‘I wish I had had more sex with more people’. Maybe if you’re a pervert, or if you didn’t get much action in your life, you would say that, but most people wouldn’t.”

I will spare you any more. This article, while one of the less eloquent and less favorable recent mainstream reviews of polyamory, shares one thing in common with every other article on the topic that I’ve ever seen: it sets polyamory and monogamy against one another as irreconcilable opposites.

While the author is less tactful about her prejudices, she does us the favor of expressing them overtly: for example, there is in many discussions the lurking suspicion that people who don’t claim orthodox monogamy are perverts, but the word is rarely used. Or they don’t really like relationships, and can’t handle intimacy; they just want to get laid. Facing these prejudices repeatedly is enough to push nearly anyone who tries to be openly polyamorous back into the closet.

Planet Waves
Social prejudices about polyamory emphasize the sexual aspects of the experience — which seems to represent the fantasy or desire most project onto the idea.

Yet I wonder what the real issue is. Studies done over the years on the incidence of cheating reveal that 45% to 65% of women and 55% to 80% of men stray outside monogamous commitments.

The variance is because some studies ask whether people have ever cheated while in a monogamous agreement; some ask whether they have cheated in their current relationship. Other studies show that women tend to understate their sexual conquests, and men tend to exaggerate. The two stats may be much closer than the studies show. Neither sex has a claim on fidelity.

In any event, we’re talking about a large portion of the population whose definition of monogamy has at one time included, and possibly includes today, sex with more than one person. For a fast check, ask yourself: do you know anyone who hasn’t been through this at least once? How about three times? How abut five?

Notably, the accepted definition of monogamy has changed in recent decades from one partner for life (now considered archaic), to one partner at a time, as often as you feel like moving on. That’s a big difference. The revised term is ‘serial monogamy’, but I prefer to think of it as serial polyamory: we tend to have multiple partners, one at a time (that is, while we’re not having multiple partners, two or more at a time).

By any realistic description, some versions of monogamy sound a lot like polyamory. Those who are proponents of monogamy at all costs, who advance the cause of abstinence-only until heterosexual marriage for life, sound like they are in reaction to the observable data, which basically proves that most people are simply not that way; that, and living in reaction to their own feelings. So do a lot of romantics, cruising for The One. True, there are some who choose a mate for life. For some this actually works beautifully and for some it creates misery. In any event, we only know their story up until today. We don’t know about tomorrow.

No matter how we experience relationships, I would propose that there are more similarities between what we call monogamy and what we call polyamory. For one thing, they both involve modes of relationship. No matter what the outward style, relationships boil down to a one-to-one meeting between two individuals. Those meetings are set within a larger context with many complex interrelations: a community.

That community either supports the relationship or it weakens the relationship. The relationship either offers something back to society, or it does not. Who has sex with whom seems to be incidental — except for one thing, jealousy. I won’t say much about jealousy in this article, except I would state upfront that in my view, if one issue is choking off the potential of the human race, choking our relationships and doing incalculable damage to sex, that’s the one.

From Self to Self: The Inner Origin of Relationships

But let’s go back to the egg. One must be a self to have a relationship with someone else. Being a self implies an inner awareness of existence, which is a relationship to existence that is in truth a relationship to self. The quality of this core relationship determines nearly everything that follows. No matter what kind of external relationships you engage in, your primary relationship is to you.

Planet Waves

Naomi from the Book of Blue. Photo by Eric Francis.

How do you feel about your existence? Do you love yourself, judge yourself, hate yourself, struggle to ‘be yourself’? What threatens you and what makes you happy? To what extent do you take ownership of your life? What threatens or enhances your sense of existence? How do you relate to death?

And, a kind of operative question that results from all of these: why do you want to be in relationship with others? What is your motive? Most of us want relationships, but we have different drives. Is the reason to share pleasure, learning, and food? Is it to share work and a mission? Is it to exchange misery? Is the purpose to seek completion in another, or to explore your wholeness with another? Is the purpose to protect you from something or to celebrate and explore a sense of safety? Do you seek love or attachment?

Each of these themes appear to be mediated by one’s relationship to oneself. Each individual brings an agenda into the pairing, and that agenda is internally mediated. It’s usually based on a level of maturity and experience in life, and one’s level of awareness. In other words, you decide and express your agenda in a relationship based on your relationship to yourself. Notably, this is the relationship that we typically seem to lose sight of when we’re ‘in a relationship’, which might feel like losing one’s independence or sense of identity.

Many people feel like they’re a ‘different person’ when they’re with a partner, and ‘go back to being themselves’ when a relationship splits up. This is a sign of inner fragmentation.

Our inner relationship is the real thing that most of us struggle with, most of the time we’re struggling. Even if we think we’re struggling in a relationship, what we’re actually struggling with is a relationship with ourselves. If we could figure that out, we would have fewer problems and more solutions. We would know where to look for those solutions.

From One Self to Another Self: Dyad as the Basic Bond

One subject that rarely arises at polyamory conferences (the places polyamorous people come to talk about relationships, make friends and exchange information) is monogamy. I mean, it’s mentioned, but the topic of the depth of one-on-one bonds is secondary to the issue of how things are doing with the other partners, the rules of engagement with other partners, and so on. Rare is it to hear open conversation about the need to relate one-on-one or the need to be in an exclusive relationship for a while. You meet couples at polyamory conferences that are monogamous before they branch out, but I’ve never met a couple at a conference that was choosing to keep their relationship exclusive.

Planet Waves

Crystal and Benji. Photo by Eric Francis.

I think that most people who identify as polyamorous know this and honor when others do this, but individual relationships seems to play second fiddle in poly culture when in fact, so far as I can tell, they are the second most basic foundation of poly culture. The very most basic is where one stands with oneself; and the second is the quality of our one-on-one bonds.

Now ‘monogamy’ and ‘polyamory’ have a second key element in common: they both use dyadic (that is, pair) bonding as a structural basis. Strong dyads share the same basic properties, no matter what the style of relationship: they are based on agreements; they are based on honesty; they are based on a desire to share; hopefully they are based on love.

Relationships have a purpose, and they express that purpose within a tribe or community. Remember that marriage, our society’s most basic and seemingly most coveted bond, is often performed in a public ceremony, officiated by a public official (traditionally by a minister, a judge, the mayor or a sea captain). The community is generally invited as witnesses.

The relationship is presumed to have public implications and the marriage license is a public document, filed with the city clerk. This suggests that the pair bond is part of something larger: society or a community and often, a family.

Relationships involve a contract or agreement of some kind, even if that is just to be together. Whether they’re happy affairs or not usually involves whether the individuals involved feel that the agreement is honored; whether the individuals get their needs met; and whether the arrangement works for both people. These facts apply whether the relationship is heterosexual or homosexual, whether the individuals are members of the same race or economic class, or whether they are of similar or very different ages.

Most of us would agree with “whatever makes them happy.” Whatever makes us happy, if we can arrange it. Whether the individuals involved choose to have sex with other people would be covered by all of these concepts.

The Many: We All Have Multiple Relationships

One thing does not change, whatever kind of relationship is involved: those individuals relate to other people. Unless they are really, really lonely, they love other people and other people love them. Partners in healthy monogamous relationships have loving relationships with others. One bit of revisionist history is that the ‘nuclear family’ is the basic unit of society: parents and kids. Until recently, these relationships were set within a complex social structure called the extended family. The dyad was part of a much larger structure that included many kinds of loving relationships.

Planet Waves
Humorous postcard explaining how complicated relationships are, which (if you don’t read the words) also gives a picture of the human networks surrounding any couple. Author or “curator” seems to be Adam Sicinski. Link to original.

Referring back to the beginning of Polly’s article (polyamory is all about sex), the truth is our relationships are always about so much more. It verges on hilarious that someone would accuse polyamorous people in particular of focusing on sex; poly folk spend so much of their time obsessively involved with the details of their relationships it’s amazing they have any time for cooking, much less for sex. But even the ‘let’s meet at the motel for a quickie’ kind of affairs have a way of becoming deeper emotional involvements.

Yet even if we presume sexual monogamy — someone who only has physical sex with one other person, for a long time — we all have bonds and commitments with others. Some of those, while ‘nonsexual’ in the physical sense, can be profound, intimate and long-lasting connections. Imagine a man is married, in a healthy relationship with his wife. He also has a secretary who has worked for him for 20 years, and they love and trust one another deeply. They haven’t shared sex, but their bond of love is as powerful as that of any marriage. Most people would not call that polyamory; I would.

And most of us have extremely active fantasy lives. Fantasy knows no bounds; yes, some people feel guilty about it, but that usually makes it so much hotter. And fantasy takes us outside the bounds of monogamy.

One thing I’ve always found interesting is that monogamy has many rules that don’t involve sex. Some monogamous couples do not ‘allow’ one another to have close friends of the opposite sex. Some monogamous people feel threatened when their partner has any friends at all. Some don’t ‘allow’ their partner to go to community college. Some feel threatened when their partner checks out a cute guy or girl, and some encourage one another to be open about their attractions and even their erotic fantasies, unfettered. Others would be profoundly threatened by this. Still others invite their friends to have sex with them.

Since nearly everyone has sexual desires and fantasies about others, the core issue running the show — that is, the thing that determines our choice to have more than one partner, and whether to be honest about it — would seem to be jealousy. Everyone gets jealous at times; some make a religion out of it. Some make it their dharma to work through it and be free. Those who dwell on jealousy relate to others with a different set of presumptions and expectations than those who process it in a healthy way. As it turns out, in an attempt to avoid the jealousy issue, a great many have sex with others without telling their partner about it. In other words, from what I hear, many people would openly want or admit to being with more than one partner or lover if jealousy were not in the way. One common equation is, “I want to be sexual with someone else, but I’m not going to because you might, and if you do, I will be jealous.”

When we talk about polyamory, what we’re really describing is an agreement to take up all the boundaries of a relationship consciously, rather than applying a term that seems to presume the nature of those boundaries, but more often denies their existence. In other words, polyamory is what we talk about, more than what we do. Most people choose to remain silent about their sexual reality.

Why ever would we do that? Well, since your first relationship is to yourself: ask yourself.

Yours & truly,

Eric Francis

For further reading:

Compersion Letters from Planet Waves Readers

“Suppression of the natural sexuality in the child, particularly of its genital sexuality, makes the child apprehensive, shy, obedient, afraid of authority, good and adjusted in the authoritarian sense; it paralyzes the rebellious forces because any rebellion is laden with anxiety; it produces, by inhibiting sexual curiosity and sexual thinking in the child, a general inhibition of thinking and of critical faculties. In brief, the goal of sexual suppression is that of producing an individual who is adjusted to the authoritarian order and who will submit to it in spite of all misery and degradation. At first the child has to submit to the structure of the authoritarian miniature state, the family; this makes it capable of later subordination to the general authoritarian system. The formation of the authoritarian structure takes place through the anchoring of sexual inhibition and anxiety.”

Wilhelm Reich, from The Mass Psychology of Fascism

 

Willing The New

By Judith Gayle | Political Waves

What a strange and exasperating period we’re living in. What has become habitual no longer serves us. Our existing patterns of behavior reveal themselves as increasingly unworkable, and our nation, along with most others across the planet, finds citizen pitted against citizen, political party against party. We are seemingly at a standstill here in the USA, where even our Vice President admits that, “Washington right now is broken,” adding, “I’ve never seen it this dysfunctional.” The President finds it necessary to toot his own horn, emphasizing that the year-old stimulus has been a success, keeping folks in jobs, creating new ones, and providing tax relief to ease the pain. The minority party argues that such assessments are all just speculation, that those jobs might have been funded anyhow — yes, when piggies fly, but that’s another story. What is ruthless and self-serving is deeply entrenched, while all that is hopey-changey, to quote the caustic Ms. Palin, must defend its very existence.

This week Evan Bayh, a Blue Dog Democrat who once served as Governor of Illinois, announced he wouldn’t be running to retain his Senate seat. Calling himself disillusioned, Bayh finds the Congress too partisan, and urges electoral “shock” to fix the broken system. Vote incumbents out, he proposes, and vote in those who want to reform the process for the good of the people rather than for special-interest groups. Those of us who watch these things carefully wonder at a statement like that, since Bayh was one of those who set out to kill the Public Option; also his wife is a member of the board at WellPoint, the nation’s largest health insurer, earning millions in the last couple of years. Gosh, doesn’t that seem like a deeply personal ‘special interest’ to you? Those who hoot and holler because Democrats couldn’t get anywhere with their supermajority should carefully scrutinize this man and his fellow Blue Dogs, because the Dems’ ability to utilize their power successfully this year was obstructed by him and those like him who serve the corporate middle.

Evan Bayh has been pointed to as an example of a centrist. He campaigned faithfully for Hillary Clinton, who aligns with her husband as a domestic centrist and military hawk. There is another word for this: establishment. While embracing Obama after his win, even briefly being considered as a vice presidential nominee, Bayh immediately organized a Blue Dog block and threw the e-brake on progressive legislation. Over the last thirty years and longer, the political stance of this nation has been diligently moved so far to the right that I think of it as a little left of Moses. In compromise with this supposed center, nothing has changed over the years but the lineup of players urging that liberals everywhere take them seriously since they represent the majority.

Planet Waves

Weekly Horoscope for Friday, February 19, 2010, #805 – BY ERIC FRANCIS

Planet Waves en Italiano

Aries (March 20-April 19)
You’re not the goodie-goodie you like people to think you are; this, despite how you flaunt your wild side. Though you would probably never own up to that contradiction, it’s time to worry less about your image and more about how being authentic draws authentic people toward you. I suggest you admit to your chaos, your passion, your craving for freedom. I suggest you admit to the true fact that your attractions follow no special logic, no rules, and in the end, know no bounds. You could spend a lot of time worrying about why you have tried to pretend otherwise; you could wonder why you’re caught in the structure that you’re in. Or you can simply be free.
Taurus (April 19- May 20)
You have an active imagination; it’s so active, you rarely give yourself a chance to step out. Yes, Taurus is the sign most often associated with physicality and grounding and all of that, but lately you seem more in your head than usual. You seem to be searching and dreaming and exploring in there. That’s fine, as long as you take some of what’s in your head, and put some of that pancake batter onto the griddle. True enough, you don’t have to. You can keep stirring it in your mixing bowl. You can keep adding sugar. But as long as you do that, you’re always going to have batter and you’re never going to have hotcakes.
Gemini (May 20- June 21)
Don’t expect your social experiences to follow a plan, or even your vaguest notions of what you thought you wanted. I would propose that you will figure out what you want in a series of experiments, at the end of which you will have given up on a few old friends and made some brilliant contacts with some new friends. This is the time to desire new people, places and experiences. In fact, it’s time for them to desire you right back. I would say if you don’t want attention, don’t leave the house, but not even that will work. Remember this attention parlays into your workplace or professional activities. You will be rewarded for good work, so keep your focus.
Cancer (June 21- July 22)
You cannot control the outcome of events, and you don’t want to. What you can do is pay attention to the flow and skate along with the game. And it looks like a fast game, for sure, where the rules change. Mars finally stationing direct is likely to improve your attitude about money, as long as you remember to invest it in what has lasting value, or in what fits a long-term plan. You feel like you have a lot of mojo, which remains true as long as you apply every molecule and photon of it consciously. There is a direct relationship between awareness and power, and at this opportune moment I suggest you add some ambition. Not a lot, just enough.
Leo (July 22- Aug. 23)
You’re about to get a surge of energy — though I suggest you go for the slow burn. Keep your flame blue and clean and just the right temperature. In other words: plan for the long run. Mars is about to station direct in the first degree of your sign; then over the next 10 weeks it will work its way clear across Leo, touching the natal Sun of everyone born under your sign. Through the long Mars retrograde, you’ve done a fine job reinventing yourself. I suggest you stretch gently into this new concept of who you are, rather than inflating like an airbag. You’ll be tempted; yet the long-term outlook says that if you pace yourself, the very best is yet to come.
Virgo (Aug. 23- Sep. 22)
You now know the truth about a health situation that has long troubled you, taxing your peace of mind in a way that you’ve let on to only a few people in your life. Though you prefer to be truthful, you were correct in not spreading your anxiety, mainly because you knew it would come back to you. Now that your worst fears have been proven unfounded, you can spread something else, which is your unmitigated vitality. And that will come back to you, just like anything else you broadcast. In the next six months, this echo effect is only going to intensify, and you’ll need to be clear what is yours and what is not.
Libra (Sep. 22 - Oct. 23)
This is not the time to seek stability in your relationships — it’s time for something better. This theme repeats over and over this spring, any way you shuffle, slice or dice the planets. You need to trust the stability within yourself. Most people seek structure on the outside, and give their relationships a too-difficult job. The difference, in the end, is about maturity; when your life moves as fast as it’s going to move, and becomes as unpredictable as it’s going to become, you need to know where your center is, and you need to know how to get there fast. Then you will be able to play fast and loose, something that is unusual for you, but which you’ve craved for a long time.
Scorpio (Oct. 23- Nov. 22)
It may be driving you half-mad that a partner can’t home in on their sense of identity. But then, you’ve been wavering on a commitment for many weeks, and this commitment has a lot to do with who you are; or rather, with acknowledging who you are. There is more to this commitment than meets the eye, because of the depth of the understanding involved. In a sense, you’re making an agreement with yourself about the role that you deserve in the world; which in turn is a reflection of how powerful you are willing to believe you are. True, over the past few months you’ve given yourself many reasons to doubt, but in truth you’ve discovered just as many to have confidence.
Sagittarius (Nov. 22 - Dec. 22)
Few astrologers would advise someone born under your sign to take a little extra risk, fearing what you might do. However, I’m aware the extent to which you have put the restraints on yourself in recent months, and have retreated far from your usual swashbuckling self. Here is the key: respond to your feelings and not your mind. Start from where you feel safe. That is a feeling you can actually trust. From that space of safety, take a step; then when that works out, take another step. You may, along the way, feel the impulse to leap in feet first, and I wouldn’t want to stop you; just make sure you’re absolutely willing, with no hint of hesitancy.
Capricorn (Dec. 22- Jan. 20)
It’s time to make some fast, bold professional moves; primarily this is the time to make sure you’re as visible as possible. If you stay where people can see you, you’ll increase the chances of success significantly: success as you define it. I have an idea what that is: the privilege of expressing the person you actually are in your professional life. Capricorn is often accused of being ambitious: I see the matter differently, as a quest for authenticity that brings you through many incarnations of your career and your role in the world. In actual fact, you must try again and again till you find the place not where you fit, but where you are free to exist.
Aquarius (Jan. 20- Feb. 19)
In astrology there are, occasionally, before and after moments. That is the easiest way to understand, or to even see, the meaning of how the planets move. You have now arrived at an ‘after’ moment: after a very long spell of the need for clarity, coexisting with yourself in a kind of misunderstanding. You have resolved something, or perhaps you’ve just observed something, but it goes so deep into who you are that it seems to reach across all your lifetimes. In any event, however you choose to think of it, you have turned one page of your life and embarked on a whole new volume of existence. The territory changes fast from here: take careful, conscious steps and always notice where you are, and whom you’re with.
Pisces (Feb. 19- March 20)
Know good times when you’re in them — and you are. These are not the kind of good times that melt into the background of history, forgotten because of their comfort. Rather, this is a moment that stands out rather than stands back, and which you may consciously, willingly and lovingly use to enter a new phase of your life. I trust that you feel a certain energetic relief, the ability to relax and the growing sense not that you have enough, but that you are enough. Keep that feeling, and remember the idea, if you lose contact with the inner orientation. It is fair to say that everything is about to change — in ways you would have wished for, if you could have ever predicted what is possible.

2010 Conferences: Relationships and Astrology

Dear Friend and Reader:

Just one more week till the next monthly horoscope. Actually, I am scheduled to finish next Tuesday’s long monthly edition today. I’ve learned to schedule this job over three consecutive days, as opposed to a weekly horoscope, which takes about three hours to write if I have a good wind at my back.

Today I want to tell you a little about what I do a few times a year when I’m not writing for Planet Waves, which is offer talks and workshops. I have two coming up over the next two weekends, and I’m including the descriptions below so you can get a sense of what they’re about.

In-person presenting is a truly refreshing alternative to spending 15 hours a day online, and I do it whenever I can. I work in lecture format, and workshop-intensive format, presenting on a wide variety of topics (for example, investigative reporting for activists and bloggers).

We don’t learn enough in school and we need to get together and form our own personal universities. Plus, the best way to learn is to teach, if you have the patience. I am lucky; I have the patience, and I love the rewards of integrating my personal knowledge and passing along some of what I’ve learned to the next generations on the planet (and as is often the case, to my elders).

Yet conferences are about more than getting together to share information: they are about actually meeting. While we live in a kind of disembodied state on the Internet, it’s vital to get back into that space of actual eye contact and physical presence when we can.

You will see the title of the first conference presentation as the lead article in Planet Waves Astrology News, which will be cross posted to Cosmic Confidential as well.

You may have heard a version of the NCGR presentation a few months ago on Daily Astrology & Adventure, our main blog — I developed and rehearsed the presentation at a meeting of our local NCGR chapter, and posted the audio. With any luck at all, I’ll be posting the audio to both of these on Planet Waves, as well as blogging on both conferences as they happen.

See you kids in your inbox on Friday.

Peace & passion,

Updates daily at Planet Waves and Cosmic Confidential Diary.

 

The One and the Many

Presentation at Poly Living 2010 on Feb. 20, by Eric Francis (in Philadelphia)

Our current definitions of relationship models — monogamy and polyamory — supposedly distinguish between whether a person has one partner or more than one. Yet about half of all ‘monogamous’ people have, or have had, sex outside a monogamous commitment; and all polyamorous people are involved in one-on-one relationships. Maybe they have more in common than we thought.

In truth, every relationship is based on each partner’s inner relationship to self, and this is the most significant factor to consider in how they relate to others. Further, all relationships with others are one-on-one bonds, no matter what their apparent style. These one-on-one relationships, whether sexual or not, whether ‘monogamous’ or ‘polyamorous’, each exist as part of much wider and far-reaching social networks.

Interpersonal relationships can support or hinder one’s relationship with oneself to varying degrees. Relationships are either supported by communities where they exist, or not; relationships support community, or not. Our prior dichotomy between relational styles, i.e., ‘monogamous versus polyamorous’, is neither descriptive nor useful at describing how real-life relationships work, since in effect, all relationships have important elements of both concepts. This presentation explores these real-life factors in our contacts with others, and how they relate to our wider social experiences.

Eric has presented for Loving More and other relationship-oriented events since 1997.

 

Beyond Keywords: Working with the Newly Discovered Planets

Presentation at the NCGR Planetary Revolution: Geocosmic Alchemy II conference on Feb. 27, by Eric Francis (in Cambridge, MA)

Since the 1977 discovery of Chiron, astronomers have discovered thousands of new planets and established several important new classes of planets orbiting our Sun. The most recent include Eris, the planet that compelled scientists to define the word ‘planet’ and reorganize their notion of the solar system. Yet astrology gives these discoveries only minimal attention.

Perhaps this is because they open up challenging areas of psychology rarely considered by astrologers. Maybe established astrologers don’t want to think they don’t really understand their own natal chart — a normal response to having five or 10 or 100 new points dropped in.

Using Eris, Chiron and Nessus as examples, Eric Francis will establish a foundation for using these planets in your counseling practice and written forecasts. You’ll learn the difference between an asteroid, a Centaur and a TNO (the three main classes of new discoveries).

Author of Small World Stories, Next World Stories and Cosmic Confidential, Eric has been researching the new discoveries since 1994 and teaching about them in the United States and Europe since 1998.

Ripple: Chiron, Neptune and the Aquarius New Moon

Dear Planet Waves Subscriber:

We are now in the deeps of the Chiron-Neptune conjunction, about to come spiraling out the other side. I trust that by now you’re at least familiar with this event, if only from noticing how weird things are. The thing is, we’re distracted by the fantasy world that surrounds all the strangeness: the Neptune overdrive. Is there any dimension of this aspect that doesn’t involve a 3G connection? Can you sell any product, from chewing gum to a car, without promising access to a different dimension?

Plasma lamp, illustrating some of the more complex phenomena of a plasma, including filamentation. Photo: Wikipedia.

There’s something distinctly nonphysical about Neptune in Aquarius. I am stopping short of saying spiritual — it could go there but doesn’t always. It’s the morph of psychic and electronic that has become so enmeshed with our lives. Even if we’ve never used a WiFi connection, we’re surrounded by them, and they affect us. In theory this aspect should also be arriving with plenty of awareness-raising experiences, on a fairly wide-scale level. Maybe the awareness is happening and we’re just not aware of it. Neptune is involved after all, and those kinds of mental loops are possible. However after a while this amounts to texting while driving.

Neptune in Aquarius describes our plasma cloud, pocket-video wonderland of contradiction. It’s a world in which something might be true, or it might not, and the difference is thought of as entertainment, mild frustration, or as playing a video game: that is, unless some reality sets in and one becomes the news.

Yet at the same time, there’s something in this aspect about coming out of denial, becoming aware of our environment and in particular our mental environment. We live surrounded by all this stuff and all these images and we pretend it has no actual influence on our consciousness or social relationships. Chiron is pointing to the truth, though in the style of this energy it may be inconvenient or uncomfortable.

Think of Chiron as focusing light through the misty fog that has shrouded our world in delusion, illusion and denial since right around the faux impeachment of Bill Clinton. Not that the fog started there, but we reached that moment when all our own headlights were showing us was their own reflection. Then years later Chiron arrives with all of his, um, magic — like the alarm clock on my cell phone that vibrates at 7:30 every morning, even after I turn the feature off. Yet for those waiting for ‘everyone to wake up’, remember that the planets impel, they don’t compel, and when they do anything close to compel, it’s usually through a crisis and not the rapture.

Chiron and Neptune get together next on the autumn equinox of 2094. Many people as yet unborn will be in their 70s and early 80s when this song comes around again on the guitar (in early Virgo, by the way, in case you’re planning for it).

Plus, a Side Order of the Aquarius New Moon

Adding a touch of the spectacular, on Saturday we have the Aquarius New Moon occurring one degree from this conjunction. So begins the Chinese Year of the Tiger. We had tiger years in 1998, 1986, 1974, 1962, 1950, 1938, 1926 and 1914. The tiger is associated with prowess and awe, and there are said to be only 3,200 left on the planet, down from 100,000 a century ago. One writer has proposed that the mythology of the Chinese zodiac has contributed to what makes them so appealing to hunt.

A substance can be held in solution — and then precipitate based on an external event: such as a bump or a change of temperature. A planetary aspect often seems to be ‘dissolved’ in consciousness or the solar system until a lunar event comes along and causes the solution to precipitate. Photo by U. Fla. Chem. Dept.

Lunar events such as the New Moon tend to precipitate the energy of slower-moving patterns, and once again this lunation qualifies. The Sun and Moon are gathering for a sendoff to the conjunction. And as the Sun and Moon light up the inner sky with their mix of yang and yin energies, what do we see? With any luck, the incredible potential for choice, for movement, and in particular, to direct our awareness anywhere we want.

Yet looking around, it’s clear that we’re alive in a moment of extreme polarization, and for many, deep and even unspeakable personal fear. Looking at what we’re up against at this time in history, I see a world society in crisis and many people struggling to adjust. Though many deny this fact, others are aware that our postindustrial, postmodern, post-rational civilization is approaching a critical turning point. This may be something in the physical environment, and it’s clearly something in the psychic/psychological environment: in truth it’s about where the two intersect, but we keep missing the point; we keep projecting it outside ourselves.

For a long time we called this Y2K, but that was too soon. The lights stayed on. Then we started calling it Sept. 11, but that didn’t get us anywhere except Afghanistan and Iraq. (Notably, Sarah Palin has advised Obama to bomb Iran if he wants his approval rating to go up. She’s not just beautiful; she’s Christian.) Now we’re calling it 2012, lacking any practical sense of what that might mean. So far this week, nobody has asked me if the world is going to end in two years; but I think they just forgot.

A Mental Confrontation

Looking at the vicious dysfunction in Washington [see Rachel Maddow video below], the further takeover of society by corporations whose lawyers sit on the U.S. Supreme Court, and an economy not being very economical, we have a clue what 2012 might be about. Instead of working to solve world problems, many of our supposed leaders are merely fighting for personal interest (i.e., for reelection, and various self-serving ideology campaigns), as well as striving to take away any meager benefit that an individual might get from being part of our society besides the privilege of shopping at Wal Mart. Heck, why bother doing anything for us? We’re a captive audience.

Associate Justice Clarence Thomas served as an attorney for Monsanto in the 1970s, at the peak of the company’s atrocities involving dioxin and PCBs. Official Supreme Court photo.

Then we’re up against ourselves: our own need to grow, seemingly against all these odds, and with not enough time; and our resistance, and our lack of skills to adapt to an environment changing so fast it would make an astronaut nauseous. We’ve been subjected to numerous shutdown campaigns and often many find themselves in states of anxiety and even panic. After being deskilled, numbed out and trained to say no to sex, work in cubicles and to eat plastic food, we wonder why it’s hard to get in a good mood and wage revolution. And time keeps going faster. I propose at least half a day be inserted between Monday and Tuesday to help us stay on top of things.

Finally, we’re coping with having limited relationship skills, including leadership skills, in a time when we need them dearly. Some say it’s men, some say it’s women, bisexuals know it’s both. There are a lot of people for whom this whole communication thing, relationship as awareness and growth, focus on the purpose of existence, is as ordinary as a UFO landing in their backyard. The little critter comes out chirping and, well it must be meaningful.

Or it’s like those Miller Lite commercials where the guy keeps choosing the beer over the gorgeous girl. Have you seen those? In one, he cannot say the word ‘love’ to her no matter how many times he tries, but straight away he can tell the hottie cocktail waitress he would love another beer.

What is frightening is how intractable all of this seems; how immutable human consciousness seems. Yet we all know that it’s anything but immutable; that we really can, and do, make decisions, learn and influence one another.

Two or Three Degrees of Separation

Lately I’ve been dipping into a book called Connected, which tells the story of human networks — that is, the ones that existed long before facebook, though including modern social tools. The authors describe the plasma-like way that influence spreads through our immediate society, out to about three degrees of separation. That is to say, my words influence you, your friends, and the friends of your friends — and then beyond that point, my influence supposedly falls off.

An example of the diagram of a social network. Energy and influence move through these networks with surprising dexterity, influencing everything from diet to health habits to mental state.

This is true of all of us, though some people serve as particularly influential nodal points.

The authors, Nicholas Christakis and James Fowler, illustrate the plasma-like environment of consciousness that serves as a vector not just for ‘information’ but also for becoming healthy or unwell, for one’s body weight going up or down, whether one smokes or not, finding love, raising political awareness and just about any other experience we think of as self-directed and personal. In other words, not just germs are contagious; feelings and actions are as well.

Consider Neptune in Aquarius and you have a nice picture of this. Indeed, Neptune (the planet of dreams, fantasies, imagination and delusion), in Aquarius (the interwoven digital system and the waves of life/light/sound that travel there) says so much about the times we live in and how permeable and interconnected we all are.

One fairly obvious potential here is for individuals within a culture to influence many people around them, for example, to come out and vote, to see a social injustice for what it is, or to work for a better life. The authors assume that everyone influences about 20 direct connections: such as family members, coworkers and friends. Given that other works, such as Bowling Alone, suggest that most Americans don’t really have too many friends, this may be a generous figure — though deep intimacy may not be necessary for someone to act as a vector.

So let’s assume the number of people we each influence is more like 10. This still suggests that, directly or through our social network, we each influence about 10,000 people. With the spread of online social networking, we may influence far more. This figure only includes actual social vectors among people familiar with one another, not nonphysical vectors that travel on the subtle planes of existence. We know that plenty of information, sensation and interaction travel through the dreamtime. Under the influence of Chiron-Neptune we can assume that energy and ideas are doing so with unusual potency right now — but let’s leave the current discussion mostly within a realm where documentation is possible.

The fact that you would choose to improve your life, to make a difficult decision or to wake up from a long spell of personal despair can and likely will have significant influence on the human environment that surrounds you. And by the same principle, the environment with which you surround yourself has a significant influence on the ease or difficulty of your improving your own existence.

Exponential Potential for Change

While these findings may not seem revolutionary, they point to a growing cultural understanding that people influence one another, and moreover, that we may do so on an exponential level. This provides some excellent motivation to live in such a way that you want to propagate in the world.

From a therapeutic standpoint, there is one potential problem I see: people choosing to change specifically because they might influence others. Yet the motivation may not matter, as long as the change and growth are sincere.

We are now experiencing the peak energy of Chiron conjunct Neptune. Chiron’s primary role is to raise awareness, almost always with the intention of healing oneself. Often it is awareness alone that sets the energy of change and progress in motion. Reminded of this, we have some great motivation to pay attention, and take to heart such ideas as, “When I am healed, I am not healed alone,” or, “Become the change you want to see.”

Yours & truly,

Updates daily at Planet Waves and Cosmic Confidential Diary.

 

Rachel Maddow on the myth of bipartisanship

Rachel Maddow on MSNBC Tuesday night. This is not a video pane, it’s a screen shot. The link to start the video is in the blog post below.

I just turned on the TV and caught this impressive bit of the Rachel Maddow program. Among the things that count for something special happening for the first time under the Chiron-Neptune conjunction, or a slight expansion on that, seeing the light, here we have a great example. I understand the element of fraud in the alleged Democratic/Republican dichotomy (both ‘sides’ are sold out to the same banks and corporations), but at other times this split was at least minimally functional. At the moment, the nature of the game has changed. Rachel has mapped it out nicely in this piece from her Tuesday night broadcast, which is about 10 minutes long and may give you a case of ageda (tha’s Sicilian for nervous stomach) — as well it should.

I don’t know Rachel personally, though she provided me with her chart data. One thing I can tell you from watching her is that this is someone who is not just a journalist; it is clear (to me) that she went or goes to therapy and takes the process seriously. You can actually see her growth process in motion, in the way she shapes her ideas and in her conception of maturity. Her birthday is April 1 and I will do her chart for you (and for her) closer to that date.

 

Model in a white gown is closed in upon by robotic spray guns which seem to maul her with black and yellow paint as she spins deliriously. This was created by Lee Alexander McQueen. Video is available here.

Lee Alexander McQueen, Innovative Fashion Designer, Dies at 40

Lee McQueen, one of the world’s most innovative, creatively independent fashion designers, was found dead in his London home Thursday morning. British press is reporting that he committed suicide about one week after his mother’s passing.

McQueen was born under the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction of 1969 that created many iconic events. This chart is rated by Astrodatabank as “C” which means use caution when applying this information. The data is published but its original source is not known, and the datum is unverified. In my opinion it is an accurate image of the subject.

Like much else that happened in Lee’s birth year of 1969 (Woodstock, the Moon landing, the Manson murders), McQueen was iconoclastic and yet became an icon. His designs were favorites of such stars as Sarah Jessica Parker, Lady GaGa, Rihanna, Bjork and Cheryl Cole.

McQueen was a Pisces Sun, Moon and Mercury: deeply sensitive, intuitive, receptive, feminine and creative. His body was found hours before Venus ingressed Pisces.

Despite his sensitivity, other factors suggest not just the ability to tolerate controversy but a passion for it, even though it took its toll on him. An avid explorer of the dark side, if his life was an exploration of the edge, it was an inner edge that he subsequently expressed in his work.

The Times of London said in his obituary Thursday night: “His tastes were eclectic. He had an apparently effortless ability to move between the low culture of the ‘bumster’ trouser, via outrageous confections which envisaged women metamorphosing into reptiles, to essays in haute couture that pointed to his early apprenticeship in pattern cutting, and demonstrated that when he wanted to, Alexander McQueen could drape the female form with consummate art and grace.”

Not surprisingly, his chart is focused on the Aries Point, indicating his astonishing level of influence in the world. Aries Point charts personalize collective issues and tend to broadcast individuals into the collective. His lunar nodes — which have a similar property on their own — are precisely aligned with the first degree of Aries/Libra. His south node is clustered with the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction, suggesting an incredible inheritance of talent from prior incarnations. Chiron is on his North Node, illustrating how he would inevitably use that talent in a highly individualistic way, letting nobody dictate his course.

An official photo of Lee McQueen.

He was no doubt feeling the pressure of the approaching repeat of the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction in Aries, closely opposite his own, coming in early June. As well, transiting Pluto in Capricorn was pushing on all of those Aries/Libra points and planets.

McQueen was openly gay, something he is said to have known about himself from age six. He described coming out at a young age: “I was sure of myself and my sexuality and I’ve got nothing to hide. I went straight from my mother’s womb onto the gay parade.” This offers a clue to his emotional proximity to his mother, and a check of his progressed horoscope indicates that her death was indeed the influence that seems to have pushed him into deep enough despair to have lost contact with reality.

Numerous factors in his chart suggest an unusual sexuality. On first look one sees Pisces planets in the 5th house (risks, creative endeavors, sex play, pleasure and concealed karma), in true Pisces style suggesting an imagination as vividly erotic as it was artistic. Chiron in nearby Aries was continually pushing this into the realm of experience; in other words, fantasy was clearly not enough. He was obsessed by making his ideas real.

Only a Pisces: one of McQueen’s outrageous designs for women’s shoes.

Yet his Venus-Saturn conjunction reveals a sense of being trapped in something — perhaps a male body — and his Nessus-Vertex conjunction in the 8th house illustrates a deep connection to the dark side, giving him a fated quality that he danced with constantly. This is someone who walked with one foot in the land of the living and one in the realm of the dead, and felt comfortable doing so.

My sense is that he viewed women as dark and unfathomable (Black Moon Lilith square the lunar nodes) and his life and fortunes seemed to hinge on this fact.

With this astrology, it would not be easy for him to maintain his stability under extreme stress, and my hunch is that when toxicology reports are available (if they are made available in England) we will, once again, see prescription drugs implicated. This is visible with his Pholus at 27+ Aquarius, right where the Moon, Sun, Chiron and Neptune will be meeting on Saturday.

As the years go by, McQueen and his ideas are likely to be elevated to the stature of high art, and he will continue to influence many generations of young designers: facts that may be of little comfort to his friends and family today, but which will no doubt be of great consolation in years to come.

 

 

 

 

 

Slip-Slidin' Away
By Judith Gayle | Political Waves

There’s nothing so lovely as a blanket of fresh snow, especially here in the country where the landscape is naturally scarred and rutted. What seemed raw and bleak after Autumn removed the softening effect of foliage takes on a gentle, gleaming beauty as snowfall obscures all the sharp angles. When I spoke to my granddaughter this week and told her it was still snowing, she said, with little kid enthusiasm, “Lucky!” Well, yes, ok — if you discount the heating bills, the harsh realities of cabin fever and the many navigational challenges.

Snow on the ground in the mountains of Southern California. Photo by Zink Dawg.

Being a diminutive person, making my way through a snow drift to get the mail is a slow, cold business; I suspect a taller individual could easily step over what I’m obliged to plow through. As I worked my way out to the road yesterday, I noticed a track of exposed gravel left by a passing truck. It seemed easier going, but I no sooner put my foot on it, slick with invisible ice, than I found myself upended with a thud and a yelp. Oscar, my dear neighbor Fishing Jim’s housemate and member of my extended dog-family, came running to take a deep bow in front of me, his tail wagging a plea for one of the biscuits I routinely carry in my pocket. I surrendered not one but two biscuits, got the mail and limped back to the house, carefully retracing my steps.

It seems as though life is like that, these days. We’re wading through some very heavy stuff in a landscape we’re neither accustomed to nor prepared for, but we’re doing the best we can. When we think we’ve found an easier option, one with which we’re more familiar, there’s every chance it will turn us upside down with bruising results. And even as we attempt to right ourselves, there’s someone or something standing right there, expecting us to jump up with a smile and get on with it. So we do, limping and shaken and wondering how much damage we’ve sustained, how much ache tomorrow will bring. From the economy to the government gridlock to cutbacks in crucial services and the rising cost of utilities and food, we’re dealing with formidable challenges. From deluge and mudslides in the West to “Snowmageddon” events in the East, we’re getting a Winter tutorial in navigating the unexpected. Perhaps we should begin to expect it, and give ourselves an edge.

Falling on my behind in the snow can be dealt with because my error was in trusting my eyes rather than what I knew of cold weather and ice. My resulting bruises can be avoided next time, based on what I learned from this experience. The national situation is similar but more harrowing, due to a national epidemic of irrationality that has entwined itself in our belief systems and conversations, and made a direct beeline into the halls of Congress. Various national leaders insist that we step out on that treacherous ice again and again, and they’re prepared to keep us skidding and slipping until we’re all so battered and confused that we go along with them, exhausted. We need to keep our wits about us.

Continued at this link…

 

Weekly Horoscope for Friday, February 12, 2010, #804 – BY ERIC FRANCIS
Planet Waves en Italiano

You may be seeking wider horizons in a relationship, or feeling the approach of spring. A little vibration is good for most partnerships, which tend to get set in their ways. Yet I suggest you note what is really changing: as far as I can tell, it’s your perception of yourself as a partner. You can no longer play the ‘role’ that was for so long, so easy for you. This may involve the discovery that a role ignores the fact that you are a work in progress. You can be a certain way as long as you think you know who you are, but once you admit that you’re on a quest, then begins the adventure. I would offer a clue, which is that you’re closer in your experience to a close partner than you think — but you won’t know unless you speak up.

I suggest you consider what factor in your environment is compelling you to adjust. There are several to which you seem to be responding, and notably you’re seeing the many ways these changes will benefit you. Yet it would be helpful if you understood your motives. It appears that you’re experimenting with the potential that it’s easier, more fun and more productive to go with the flow than it is to resist. This is a meaningful step, though something is influencing you to try on this way of life. Certain other possibilities seem to have reached their limits, though when it comes to a professional matter whose time has finally arrived, you will need to make sure you take an extra step to actively envision what you want rather than taking a ride on pre-existing circumstances.

You seem to be in one of those environments where everything is in harmony — except for one thing. You have a decision to make, with the primary choices being: decide the factor is the one thing you can’t tolerate; or decide that no matter what this one other person or factor may say or do, you’re determined to create this situation as you want it to be. Here’s a clue I can offer: Whoever or whatever is resisting is probably not directing this personally at you. He or she has other problems, and you’re getting some of the overflow. If you assume it’s personal, you’ll take it personally and handle things one way; if you assume that people have their issues and are entitled to them, you will handle things rather differently. It’s up to you.

While key elements of your life are suddenly coming together, you may think that this is not the time to push your luck or take advantage of the situation. I would say to the contrary: now is the moment to give everything a stretch — your sense of what is possible, your vision for the future, your commitments, and moreover, your deepest desires. You’re still on your way to finding out what those are, and the most significant thing you can do right now is to give yourself permission to have a better life — no matter what may be happening in the world around you. You may be wondering how or why so much is changing all at once, and if so I would suggest the answer is simple: you are finally starting to pay attention to something that’s been trying to get your attention for a long time.

One of your greatest assets is your independence. You seem to be getting the hang of one of the most valuable tools on Earth: relationships based on “you figure you out, I’ll figure me out.” Of course, everyone can compare notes at the end of the day, but till then it’s easier if everyone stays out of one another’s way. Here is the thing: behind the scenes, you’re having a far greater effect on the people around you than you imagine. You’re the one originating the example for how to live your life your way. I know there is that old joke about herding cats, but you seem to be causing a stampede of independent-thinking and autonomous decisions. The truth is, what’s good for everyone is indeed good for everyone, so keep reminding the world of that cosmic miracle.

For a long time you’ve been obsessed, though with little clue about what. That must be really annoying. It remains to be seen whether you’ll be any happier once you know what mysterious thing has held your attention by the scruff of the neck. You might say that you’re finally getting a clear perception of someone or something that’s been veiled in a blind spot. The thing about blind spots is that you cannot see into them until your perspective changes. That means noticing that what you’ve actually been responding to is your own fear. Fear of what? Of being known and visible — which translates to the fear of existing in a tangible and undeniable way. Don’t worry, it’s not just you — this is an epidemic. You happen to be in the fortunate position of resolving the issue constructively.

Sex can be complicated, but all dogs need jobs. The job I suggest you give sex is the overall improvement of your wellbeing. Truth is, erotic experience can be thought of in many ways as money, food or thought itself. It’s 100% open to interpretation and choice. Clearly, you’re being driven by your erotic impulses at the moment, and they may seem daunting in several ways: one for being so impersonal. Another for how many people or scenarios they may involve. Yet you are a person, so by definition whatever you feel or need is personal. Ultimately, what you seek is contact, and what you need is contact, and what will improve your life is: connecting in a way that, by your own choice, you focus on emotional grounding and nourishing communication — as kinky as you want.

Being misunderstood offers you a form of power: you know the truth, and they don’t. Therefore, you maintain control. Yet is this really the way of life that you seek, or want to create? And doesn’t it play directly into the perception that you don’t do anything without an agenda? Doesn’t this validate the perception that causes you so much struggle? Currently, your life is mediated by what you give, not what you need. That is to say: you’re being invited to set aside your many intricate and at times insatiable emotional needs and offer some love and comfort to those around you. Once you start doing this, you’ll get a look at the extent to which you’ve done the opposite for a long time. Among the things that actually influence you, awareness of this will become one.

This is the time to sweep together all the plans, thoughts and ideas you’ve scattered around, and see what they add up to. In sum, they add up to a new expression of yourself, or rather, the expression of a nascent sense of yourself that is becoming strong enough to take on a life of its own. Or rather, your own. Your life is not separate from you. While you don’t cause the world, you do indeed cause your version of the world, and are ready to discover that you keep creating it every time you breathe, speak or take a step. As a child, you had exceedingly little power over your environment. As an adult, you have somewhere between 49% and 99% influence over your environment. How far do you want to go?

There’s no such thing as ‘once and for all’, but what you learn about money over the next few days will be applicable to every financial situation you face for the rest of your life. The cosmos seems determined to inform you just how resourceful you are. When money became the only medium of exchange, we were ripped off of something inherent about who we are, what we have and the work that we do. The true value of things is hidden by their price, not revealed. By value, I mean the actual worth to you and to the world. One clue to bear in mind is that the value of whatever you do is established only by the extent to which you and others benefit simultaneously. It’s not a matter of you versus anyone; your wealth, influence and prosperity are a community venture.

It would be difficult to overstate what a visionary moment this is for you, but I’m going to understate my interpretation so you’re more likely to take it on board. We know how long it takes for a human to awaken to his or her vitality, present consciousness or simple truth. Astrologers, therapists, spiritual teachers and hospice workers see people waking up in late years or last moments of their lives, grateful for having done so. You’re getting to wake up long before ‘the end’, but the shift you’re moving through is indeed an ending. I suggest you not be so eager for a new beginning. Nature really does abhor a vacuum, so you don’t have to be concerned: for now I suggest you let the past drain out of your system, and focus on holding yourself open in ways you actually believed were impossible.

You’ve done such a good job at hiding your dreams from yourself. Yet why would you do that? Perhaps out of the fear of all kinds of vulnerability. If you act on your dreams, you become subject to resistance, resentment, judgment — and success. This is double edged: first you would have to face the negativity of the undead. Next, you would have to take responsibility for what happens to you. Somehow these supposed threats have lost their influence over you, or they will the moment you reach past them. Notice that the power other people seemed to have was only given to them by you. Yet there is nothing to take back. You have what you need, which is the power to make choices based on what you want: which translates to the power to be who you are.