By Amanda Moreno
First of all, that Mercury Retrograde period was a doozy and I’m just so glad it’s over! Second of all, I’ve officially become a stone fanatic.
By “stone” I am referring to stones and crystals and gems. I’ve been increasingly using them in the past few years as tools — for healing, or grounding, or balancing or protection (typically in the form of jewelry. It’s become a thing, I’ll admit it. The goddess must be adorned.).
I tend to choose the stones I’m working with based on instinct; whatever color or shape calls to me is what I go with, and my decisions are usually validated with further research.
I’ve recently found an increased ability to tap into them in a way that is more like hearing than guessing. There’s also been a big shift in the types of stones I’ve been attracted to. So much of the focus has been on heart-centered healing and protection — fluorite and green turquoise and chrysocolla and selenite. Now I’m suddenly drawn to lapis and moonstone and obsidian, among others.
I’ve been working with moonstone for years, but its energy has suddenly become far more ethereal than I’m used to. In combination with the lapis, it seems to bring me into my head with some calm, cool, calculated feeling that is not separate from the heart, but it’s such a different experience. It reminds me of some Atlantean priestess standing on a cliff, staring out at the ocean, gathering energy for some storm to come. Or something.
I’m also aware that as I use these stones, the way that energy is moving through my body is changing. Not to say that’s necessarily because of the stones, but there are correlations.
The thing is that I really like the heart centered stones, and I’m somewhat hesitant about these new choices. Part of this is because I’m feeling increasingly called to some part of my path that I’m also wary of, even though I’m not quite clear what it is. All signs point to an intensified focus on self-discipline, structure, and the further deconstruction of beliefs I’ve held for some time, all in support of continuing to come into my power. It’s triggering this instinct I have, largely supported by experience, that tells me walking the ‘healing’ path has to be a solitary adventure — that I cannot have love and relationship (with other humans, at least) as well, at least not in any form that lasts.
My immersion in the heart realms has had me slightly off balance. I’m aware of a pattern I have of focusing all of my energy on others, especially while in relationship, not leaving enough space for ‘the work’, and for that actual day job thing. However, I can feel my powers of perspective and objectivity filtering back in after these years of heart-work and I’m curious as to how the connection between the head and the heart will blend together.
My instinct is that this new crop of stones are helping with that. I just don’t entirely trust them yet. And how strange it can feel to have thoughts like, “I don’t quite trust this rock.”
My birthday just passed, and the rising sign of my solar return chart was 1 Capricorn, with Saturn (ruler of Capricorn and my Aquarian Sun) in the 11th. A look at the Sabian Symbols for these degrees seemed to get me a bit closer to contextualizing the energies I feel ushering me into the year ahead. (If you’re new to astrology, the Sabian Symbols are a system of images applied to each of the zodiac degrees; Dane Rudhyar’s version is one of the most popular.)
Capricorn 1: An indian chief claims power from the assembled tribe. Keynote: The power and responsibility implied in any claim for leadership.
Something about this one speaks to a feeling I have that I should be concentrating more on teaching classes and being a part of like-minded groups this year — and the part of me that feels like I’m not worthy of that or an imposter, even though other parts of me know I’m good at that kind of work. This also refers directly to Saturn in the house of tribe.
The Sabian Symbol for the Libra Moon, then, speaks to what I sense now as a blending of head and heart that can help me in the year to come:
Libra 10: Having passed safely through narrow rapids, a canoe reaches calm waters. Keynote: The self-control and poise necessary to reach a steady state of inner stability.
Perhaps that’s what I feel most keenly right now, a more increased state of inner stability. Four days into my 35th year, and there has already been one episode of ‘crisis.’ But I was able to hold my center and have begun the process of objectively examining what happened.
Coincidentally, the Sabian Symbol for 2 degrees Aquarius, where Mercury just stationed direct — and holy hell, what a Mercury retrograde period that was — reads: An unexpected thunderstorm. Keynote: The need to develop the inner security which will enable us to meet unexpected crises.
As for the connection to the stones, I’ve noticed that using lapis and moonstone together tends to result in me running a lot of energy between the heart and head chakras. For the most part I have felt unable to ground the energy. I have to focus on drawing it down, and have difficulty breathing into it.
It’s all so fascinating, and so much weirder and more mysterious — and fun — than I ever thought it could be. Here’s to continued work with stones, even if I have declared a jewelry buying hiatus for the foreseeable future.