Any dissatisfaction or lack you now feel might not, in fact, correlate with something lacking in your life. Rather, you may be sensing that there is something more you can do with your life. There is a difference, and it does not mean you have to change the plans you have already developed and put in motion. By all means, do follow through and complete what you have started.
The Grateful Dead used to sing, “If you get confused, listen to the music play.” The current astrology says: “When in doubt, make your living space nicer.” Obviously you have more than this on your mind, including a diversity of concerns about where you’re at, whether you’re really making progress and what you’re doing with your life.
You currently have power over someone that you may not see, and if you see it, you may not understand it. Your idealism, your commitment to embracing the unknown, and the fact that you represent a dimension of spiritualism that others envy are all factors. On one level, you may feel they are making up stories about you that are really about them (this is called projection).
God is not mad at you, and won’t ask you to sacrifice your favorite cow, your ideas or your ass. One scourge of institutional religion is that we’re all infected with a concept of “god,” supposedly the ultimate and original creative force, who has limited powers, who is stingy and worst of all, vengeful. If god = love, then love = revenge.
Perhaps the greatest reward of this phase of your life is the extent to which your short-term plans your long-term goals and the person you’re becoming are all so well aligned. You can trust one thing in particular: that all the small adjustments you’ve made to your life are actually adding up to something both coherent and sensible.
Perhaps the surprise of the year was how much you have to share with others, and how much others are willing to share with you. We live in a time when private interests dominate everything, and where for the most part our homes have become so isolated that we tend to forget that they are designed to facilitate not only solitude, but also community.